A New Barrier... Chains that Bind...

I know I haven't updated this in a while, but I will make it a point to do so more often...

~LIFE UPDATE(S)~
Dad has already moved out, but he was living at my Uncle Phillips.. Now he has moved out of there and has gotten a small apartment. The apartment is also shared by my oldest sister, Meagan, and her friend, Nikki.

We were under the impression that we had to move out by Sept 21, but that is not the case. Apparently we won't even have to think about moving out until 2010. Though this is good news, this is also bad news at the same time.. .. .. I can't get any better internet. -.-

I have bought the movies Death Note and Death Note II: The Last Name. From the anime, they have made a real-life film, with Ryuk, Rem, and Jealous to be in full, near-flawless, CGI.

~RANT/REASON~

This is the reason for the, drive, to make a new blog post. As well as a rant, you could say. Spilling out some emotion for anyone and everyone to read... Though I'm sure I've lost my readers by now... Just like I lose friends... Fate takes them and pushed them away...

I have not-so recently done something I, kind of, regret. This isn't easy to say, because I'd rather forget... I pretty much cheated on Tyler... My Soul Mate... It was, for mixed reasons. The girl, who I will only mention as "Chey", has been through hell. That which matches my Ashy Hell's past. Though while my Ashy Hell put herself in those dangerous situations, Chey just got the raw end of the deal.

I wanted to help... To heal.. That connection.. It felt like.. 'it'.. It was similar.. Really close.. My heart is wrapped around Ty's, just as it was then. It seems either my Romance is growing, or the barriers that separate myself from my manwhoreish past have been crumbling away without me looking. Don't get me wrong, I'd be happy if I lived with Chey. I can even sit down and think through the years of what it'd be like. I more-so just wanted her to be happy. She's been through so much, she deserves it... But.. I am not the person meant to cause such happiness.. And in the end, I just caused more pain.. And nobody knows how much that hurts..

It hurts in various ways.. I never want to hurt a girl.. And in physical sense, it's impossible. It's like being paralyzed. You try and try, knowing you can move that body part.. But it won't listen. I could make a fist, I could glare at a girl, but I could never swing at them... Not unless some extreme circumstance. And not only that, but i use to be a manwhore. Finding out how far I could push my romantics.. And then my dad.. My dad cheated on my mom at least 6 times.. I can't.. I won't be like him..

And lastly.. I never wanted to hurt Ty.. I wanted to be the perfect boyfriend.. Her and I match on so many levels. I can try and tell myself that we all make mistakes, that to learn from them is what's important, and that we all have regrets, it's part of being human.. .. .. But none of that makes me feel any less mean..

So.. I shall make sure it never happens again... My Romance is focused on Ty.. My Romance won't be allowed to reach anyone else.. The chains shall make sure of that.. Ty shall have the key. Think of this.. as a new level.. I've wrapped my heart around one person before.. But this is on a deeper level.. Like.. Fusing or Infecting.. My Romance won't work without Ty. Think of me as insane if you wish, but reality is all about perception.

As for you, Chey.. You probably won't read this.. But I do appologize.. I not only want you to be happy, but I also don't want to lose another friend.. Especially on purpose.. But I'm sure you understand.. Please.. Take care.. Be careful.. You'll be with Pegasus.. Just hang in there..

Tyler.. I'm sorry.. You are my Soul Mate.. Believe me, this will never happen again...

.hack//G.U. Trilogy RELEASE!!!

"Through me the way is to the city dolent; Through me the way is to eternal dole; Through me the way among the people lost. Justice incited my sublime Creator; Created me divine omnipotence; The highest Wisdom and the primal Love. Before me there were no created things, only eterne, and I eternal last. All hope abandon, ye who enter here!"

Possibly the coolest, most random and insane saying I have ever heard, and it is the beginning of the awesome movie .hack//G.U. Trilogy, based off of the video game series. Actually, not 'based off of' but more like 'summarizes with a slight alternate story line' lol. This movie was released late August of 2009 (Yes, just last month!) and it seems almost nobody has even heard of it.. Not even fans of the video game series!

Seriously, this isn't the greatest movie for non-fans of the game. Not only will you not understand most of it, but it is also Japanese voice only, with english subtitles. That bothers some people but to others it shows real anime. The story line will most likely just look like a love-triangle, murder mystery, and plot twist. However, IT.. IS.. GORGEOUS!!! I'd take these graphics over even Final Fantasy Advent Children, though that movie might be more realistic, this movie is based in a video game world, so it's understandable. Seriously, even without High Definition, it looks amazing.

For fans of the game, this is a must-see. Not only do you see some of the past cut scenes re-done in better graphics (Such as Haseo the PKK vs Pkers, and Haseo vs Tri-Edge) you also get to see a much bigger, impressive battle.. Not to spoil it for you of course, but you do get to see what fans are calling "B-st form". And there's bonus features like "Parody Mode" where it seems they took a few regular cut scenes and mixed with the subtitles to add a few jokes, making Haseo look like a major perv, such as joining the G.U. so he can get free membership to porn and get unlimited access to Pi (Girl character) >.>

Seriously, if you don't buy the DVD, at least watch it streaming somewhere.. Though I'll warn you, the major reason to watch is to see the awesomeness of the graphics, and streaming video butchers that.

.hack//G.U. Trilogy gets 4 outa 5 stars!!! Yeah, no perfect score. Sorry, but it's way too rushed. If you've played the games, you'll be pointing out all the things they cut out lol.

Xing Sketch

Ok, no idea if there's a style for this sort of art, but I am going to call it Xing. Though it is lots of little lines, not exactly X's, it just kinda sounds cool lol. If you save and zoom in you'll see what I mean. This is just one of many that I do with my boredom and patience. It helps me ignore my Insecurity and Heartache and just overall chaos of my life, and express how chaotic some things are on paper.

Happy Birthday, Heather!!!

Heather, I wish you a happy birthday!!! I know birthdays seem more boring and more pointless as they go by, but as long as you have something that makes you happy, then everything can be ok. ^.^ Even if you DO like WoW (World Of Warcraft). >.> I'm still Anti-Monthly Payments, even if I spend more than $15 a month on just random console games which I don't finish anyways. >.>

So, Heather. A lot of memories, huh? Realm Life was way more awesome with you in it. Though, majority of the memories still go to The Darkest Star... Very customizable but a shame it never took off. I'm glad we had that time though... I wouldn't have traded it for the world.

I wish you the best of luck in everything that you do, and I hope things start turning around for you...

As for everybody forgetting, don't worry... They just aren't important enough.. I'll remember though. ^.^

And, yet again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY, HEATHER!!!

Pain...

Lots of pain... Headache spike and it's lasted quite a while. Actually taking the maximum amount of Tylenol Extra Strength: Rapid Release Gel's and as soon as I can, and when I can't take any more I'm taking the maximum dose of Asprin. Even then I still hurt... I'm sorry I haven't been as talkative or happy as I usually have been. Or on as much as I use to be...

I'm sorry... I hope this goes away soon.. or if this is the new 24/7 headache, then I'll adjust as quickly as I can... *sighs* Work is gonna be hell now. -.-

Boring Rut and Randomness

There's not much to say, I'm sorry I haven't been posting a lot. Nothing much has been happening.

I started a new account in Flyff on the PVP server so I can have extra fun when I get powerful enough. And I like the added excitement. My lovely gf, Ty, has also joined with me. As I am going to be a STR Knight, she's going to be a full INT Ringmaster. So basically we have an awesome damage dealer and an awesome healer/buffer lol, perfect combo.

Work is, same as always. Avging around 1000 calls per paycheck, but recently it's been more from the stupid First Premier Bank credit card applications. As soon as those calls start slowing down, they send a whole new wave of them, so then we start getting calls back to back. Each call takes about 6-10 mins IF everything goes smoothly, but that never happens. There are too many retards that don't read the mail, so then are suprised by fee's when they do hit their card. The mailpiece explains EVERYTHING. So please, anybody who recieves mail, before calling a number, before applying for a credit card, READ everything first.

Random sister stupidity: "I dunno, can I call and activate it now? But it says it will be Activated September 4th." Uhm, that means it'll be activated at that date, it does not say an action is required. Are people really this stupid? I'm not extremely smart, I'm no straight A student, but it seems there are SOOOO many people who seem to lack common sense, if not even the ability to comprehend.

My headache preventatives seem to either not be effective or that my headaches have just slightly grown worse. One good thing about it is, it seems to drown out my Insecurity. I guess the headaches effect him as well.

Loaning out money to family seems to be a big thing. If I'm buying Soda, it's being stolen right in front of my eyes, and at a really fast pace. I believe in 12 hours, 6-7 cans were gone and I only had 2 of them. In 24 hours, 13-14 cans were gone and I only had 3 total.

I have boughten a few new games. Twilight Princess for the Wii, Ghost In The Shell: Stand Alone Complex for the PS2, Gungrave Overdose for the PS2, and Obscure The Aftermath for the PS2. I've already defeated the Ghost In The Shell game. Honestly, it was a pretty decent game. Gungrave Overdose DO NOT BUY. The controls are so odd, though you'll mostly just be pushing the Square button to shoot. Obscure is too dark, I need it to be aroudn midnight before I attempt to play it. And Twilight Princess is pretty neat.

Random saying that I hate, when you shoot someone down 'in cold blood'. Technically this means they were in some sort of container or puddle, which contained cold blood instead of water. o.0 Who here has seen a movie with anybody actually being in cold blood? If they're talking about some lame metaphor for the killer being cold blooded, shouldn't the saying be "shooting someone down with cold blood."? Well I guess that's saying the bullets are cold blood.. Hmm, so that saying can't work, it should be getting rid of. >.>

Also a bit more randomness, the concept "Revenge". I almost agree with it, but I think it should be dealt on a level higher than the damage that was initially done. Such as, an eye for an eye? Nooo. An eye, foot, and finger for an Eye. They should recieve exactly what they did, and more. Otherwise, how will they learn? If Afghanistan hit us with a couple plane's, and we hit them with a couple bombs and obliterate them, then everybody else would think twice about doing what they did. You can't call it fear because it's not a threat, it'd be showing them how we react. If they didn't do anything for us to react to, everybody would be fine. Believing in Revenge might be evil, but I plan on going to hell anyways to take vengence on manwhores (Any guy who doesn't treat a girl right. Either through abuse, pure neglect, or other various factors.)

Ok, I'm gonna stop now. Slight headache spike as well as a sore on the inner-bottom lip. Talking to much and I'm not use to it I guess. =/ Maybe I'll try talking slower.

For anybody and everybody reading this, thank you for listening to me. I can't imagine why you'd be so interested in my life, nor would I understand why your giving up so much of your time to read this. I hope I didn't bore you too much, and if you have any arguments or corrections for me (Like you usually do, Emily lol) you know by now that I do not mind being corrected or having to face another side of one of my opinions.

Take care and be careful... And thanks for avoiding Fate so far.. Current Friend list remains as..

Tyler (Amazing gf)
Aimee (Alias)
Ellie (Alias)
Chelsey
Emily (Drifting apart)
Genevieve (New-ish Friend, Not close)

Street Fighter Movie.. .. EPIC FAIL X2

Ok, the latest Street Fighter Movie about Chun Lee (sp?) is soo horrible, I wouldn't even recommend youtube-ing even any of the fight scenes.

Oh boy.. Where to start.. Why not start with the main good character... Chun Lee. I apologize if I haev spelled it wrong but this is how I'm going to spell it for this entire post.. She looks nothing like her, sounds nothing like her, doesn't even have her fast-kicking ability/skill that is her trademark.

Now onto the main evil character, Bison. The big, broad-shouldered guy who could tower over his opponents. Well apparently he bleached his hair, changed his trademark look, he grew shorter, less buff, lost his ability to fight and any special powers. He went from looking like a bad-ass bodyguard that nobody wanted to mess with, into this white-trash mob-boss wannabe.

Ok, powers.. Now Street Fighter was never TOO big on powers like Mortal Kombat was, however people had their own abilities... Some guy from India could stretch his limps, there was a beast that could produce electricity, ect. In the movie there was healing (for a total of 3-5 seconds), and the only other power shown was this weird ball of light.. Which was just wind.. Was that ripped off of Dragon Ball Z and their Ka-may-ha-may-ha-may-ha blast thing? Or was it ripped off of the Avatar the last Airbender?

There were 4-5 battles, very short. The longest one was actually a swarm of soldiers with guns.. It looked more like cops taking out bad guys with the swat team. >.>

Final Battle? Basically Chun Lee kicked the crap out of him.. And the final move? The magic air ball that took about 15 seconds to form (why didn't he move out of the way while she was getting it ready?) she threw it at him just to push him off the building.. >.>

Seriously.. This is completely retarded.. The old Street Fighter movie with Guiles (sp?) VS Bison actually looked exactly like the video games.. I prefer the old movie over this piece of crap. -.-