Flyff/Fly for fun.. .. .. EPIC FAIL.

Ha, I've had the same account for over 4 years.. I've even let it sit idle for 1 whole year and logged back on, nothing changed, it was awesome... However, Flyff has released a new Anti-Hack program, and what do ya know? I'm hacked.. I went through a whole mess with Flyff Support trying to figure out my new password. My secret security question was changed as well so I had to describe my entire account to get it back..

SUCCESS.. They say they have found and verified my account, gave me the e-mail address that it was registered to, and told me to do the Reset Password option...

PROBLEM.. The Reset Password option does, indeed, reset your password and sends a new one to your e-mail... However, it gets sent to the registered e-mail.. So I did all that just to send my hacker a different password to the account. -.-

Seriously, "manglador@hotmail.com", You are a complete loser and I hope you die a painful death. I'll see you in hell with all the manwhores. =P

Happy Belated Birthday Tara!!!

Well, I've met Tara in the very first mmorpg I've ever played, which was a free UO server. (Ultima Online) And when I was marked as a murderer (For Rez killing a loser.. I actually think it was to help Tara, and the dude just wouldn't quit, so I would keep killing.) I was stuck on Felluca, where nothing cool happens and PVP/looting is available anywhere. Tara would risk being pvped to come and visit me at the same location that I stayed for the 1+ month. But I guess I was there so she'd be safe. =P

Anyways, I've known her for over 4 years, when she was young and a little kid.. And now, she's got a bf, high school, I mean.. She's grown a lot in such a little time.. Yeah, that doesn't sound creepy, at all. >.> XD

She's a really nice girl, and has been through a lot. None of which she deserved, by the way. Now she has Nate, who I have to admit is a good guy to say the least, and I'm really glad they got together (He has been her best friend for a long time.)

Now, to the point of the post. 2 weeks ago she turned 16!! (Yeah, well she's rarely on and is one of the friends who faded away, just talked to her last night and caught up a bit. Really made my day.) So, though I know quite a few people read this but nobody really comments because it requires you to register and account, but I want everybody, when they read this, to say out loud "Happy Sweet 16, Tara!"

Oh, and by the way, pronounce it (Ta-Ra), not (Terrah), cause that sounds like the gangster version of Terror. She's awesome but she's not scary. XD

The Chains That Bind...

I do apologize for the lack of posts... I understand not many people read this.. If anybody anymore.. (My hats off to you, Emily.. For I know you'll get around to reading this.. And I thank you.. For you alone, my words that I type, the time it takes to type them, and the effort to share them, are not in vain).

I feel less Romantic than I know I am very well capable of.. I know I have been out of headache preventatives for over a week and headaches aren't helping anything, including stress levels, which job and family issues aren't helping that either.

Have you ever wanted to say something or do something, but just couldn't? It has nothing to do with energy, effort, courage, ect.. You want to do it.. But.. you just can't.. Like something is stopping you.. Something is in your way.. Preventing.. Holding you back.. I feel that way.. And I apologize for all whom it effects..

And again.. Fate seems to slowly be pushing people away.. Slowly fading.. My friends I talk to even remotely frequently are now down to...

Tyler...
Alias - Aimee
Alias - Ellie
Emily (Slowly drifting apart)
Chelsey (Slowly drifting apart)

And that is it.. And to think.. Gaia Online I had over 100 friends.. Over 5,000 comments and was even going for 10,000 before they put the 500 limit on, and before I was hacked by a friend that I refuse to confront, for I feel as though she saved me from there instead of punishing me...

And to think.. The recent mess has pushed, or hurt my trust, with Tyler and Aimee..

Is it.. wrong to almost miss Ash, JUST because I've known her for so long? I use to think friendship with her was a curse... But now.. I can't believe how distant we've grown.. It almost hurts, as twisted as it is..

And Chloe.. My eyes get watery everytime I mention or even think her name.. Just like now.. Sometime.. I still forget she's gone.. And to be honest, if she were to randomly pop online.. I wouldn't believe it.. I would assume it was a friend or enemy just playing some sort of prank or being an imposter... As sad as that is..

Anyways.. I apologize for this rant.. i just.. It seems I have less and less people to talk to.. And even if nobody reads this.. Just to write them down.. I've shared them with my computer.. And sadly.. As pathetic as it sounds.. As sad as it is... That makes me feel a little better..

Now.. just to wait until my computer slowly fades, and dies, and disappears from my life.. Just as it seems everyone else eventually does.. But have no fear.. The time we spend together.. I cherish.. and will always remember..

And for those memories.. I thank you.. For letting these chains feel just a little bit lighter..

Michael Jackson

Ok, let's start this off by saying a good thing about em..

His songs.. His dance moves.. They're awesome.. Nobody will ever top them.

HOWEVER...

HIs sales from HIS time when he was big, he sold around 10,000 albums... AFTER his death, the sales jumped to 450,000+... His sales have jumped over %2,000 JUST because of his death? Are you serious? He isn't even big anymore...

And they've already started with the "Collectible Memorabilia" of huge posters/pictures of him.. Though what's odd, they are all of when he was black.. NEWSFLASH, he was white when he died.. By doing this, you're showing how fake he is now, and admiring the past/living in the past, and it took his death for you all to realise that you like him enough to buy something?

And Child Molestation.. I'm not sure if it's true or not, but I do know his friends and family claim how he's sooo good and kind-hearted, yet did you know how much drugs they found at his place? His secret room with rows and rows of tapes? (Not sure what's on them.) He even had a computer and a video hook up, aimed right at a crib... Which, I'll add, there were stacks of tapes by this computer as well..

So whether or not he was a child molester, the fact remains that he was a drug addict.. And that whole, "He was born that way, where his skin turned white over time." and "It was genetics, his nose fell off and he had to replace it." that's completely bull.. Seriously.. If you live in that kind of fantasy, then when we have nucleur wars, think they're a shooting star comming to take you to heaven. -.-

Sorry for the rant but a stupid commerical selling Michael Jackson Collectible's set off this rant. -.-

Chloe..?

My closest friend, my greatest friend, my favorite gaming partner, My Anti-Ash..

I don't know what happened to you.. I know that you said you were busy with school work but you also said you'd reply to e-mails and that does not seem to be the case..

Chloe.. I miss you.. I haven't forgotten about you.. And I really hope you're ok..

I really.. Don't know what else to say...

Sad

http://postsecret.blogspot.com/

My great friend Emily (I have two but the insomnia one of whom is one of my followers) has shared this with me and now I'm spreading it on to anyone who doesn't know about it. Just click it and you'll understand...

To those too lazy to click it.. It's where people send in anonymous post cards with secrets on them, and those are, in turn, posted. Thus, secrets are shared, however they don't have to face the eyes of those that would otherwise judge them. A couple examples are...