Today, around 3am, my cousin Joshua Beattie was in a car accident and did not survive. My mom and sisters went up to see my aunt and grandma. I have to stay and work, or I may screw up my plans to visit my beloved Tyler.
Not sure what else to say. I apologize for the lack of length. I'm fine. It's just like when my grandpa died. I just don't see death as a bad thing, as long as your not leaving your loved one behind. Messed up, I know, but that's how warped I am. Just more proof to show you that love IS everything to me.
While your driving, please be careful. I don't know the reason he crashed, but just be more careful... Thanks.
Sunday, November 22, 2009
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
Changes and Updates... Big and Small...
Ok, a few random changes, both big and small. We'll start with the small and work our way up, ok? Well, why am I asking you? You don't have a choice. =P Well I suppose you could read this blog backwards, but are you going to be THAT stubborn to put so much effort just to rebel against me? =P
To get things started, a few things you may have noticed about my blog. Nothing big, just Counters. A Real-time All Hits counter, and a Unique Visitor counter. Just thought it'd be kinda interesting. Wish I could get the unique visitor to start from the beginning of my blog, but sadly it isn't part of Blogger so there's no way. =/
Another change would be, headache-wise. It's technically a change, but it's to be expected. My 24/7 headache has grown a bit in intensity, as well as I'm now more susceptible to headache spikes. This is because I'm out of preventatives at the moment. Also means it's no longer lowering my blood pressure. What this means is, since my body was use to the lower blood pressure, it was use to running on some "low" setting. I'm just going to say that for lack of a better phrase. Now it's running without limitations, so it's on "normal". The only problem is, my body isn't use to it, so not only am I feeling more awake, I'm also burning through more energy and getting tired faster, which sucks. And just to show the difference, normal blood pressure is 120/80 and at 4 pills it was at 84/60. And for the record, I'm taking 5, so it's even lower than that.
A bit bigger would be my Uki (1995 Suzuki Sidekick). It's permanently KO'd. Even the mechanic couldn't find out what was wrong. He said he could take a longer, more thorough look into things, but I don't want to pay him more for nothing. So I posted it up on this website "Craigs List". It's kinda cool for people who want to post what they have to sell, online. And you can search about things in your area. And it's free to use. =) I've gotten only ONE offer of cash, and then some stupid people messaging me. Including someone with extremely poor grammar, and someone who wanted to give me some cash AND trade his old jeep. Which I'm guessing doesn't work. If it did, why would he be looking for mine, which clearly states that it needs some work? >.>
I have also officially purchased the plane ticket to get to Ty's. The times have been cleared by both families, so we should have no problem. I believe I have $130 saved up in spending cash right now, and will deposit around $200 each paycheck until I leave. I even have a Countdown until I arrive at Tyler's. =) http://www.timeanddate.com/counters/customcounter.html?month=12&day=27&year=2009&hour=20&min=25&sec=00&p0=142
Finally, dad's moving back in. Yes, we're still moving to the new house, but mom and dad are going to give it another try. Mom asks to not be disappointed in her, but she's just getting overwhelmed with everything. Which is pretty understandable actually. I'll still be on mom's side and help her out as much as I can, and I'll also be nice to my dad as much as I am able... But I do hate man-whores, and dad is a major one, simple as that.
So, there you have it. I'm posting more, as promised. And look at all that can happen in a few days? XD And here I thought my life was boring. *rolls eyes*
Oh, and btw, I have learned Tyler is even more unique! An Anime/Video Game lover who has not seen Final Fantasy Advent Children, OR have played a Super Mario Bros. game. (The old style where you run to the right? =P) Makes me feel kinda old. XD *Turns to Tyler* It's ok though hun, ya know I love ya! =)
And I see my Unique Visitors climbing, but still a lack of comments.. Sheesh people, commentary isn't required but, if you have something to say or ask, feel free. I'm not gonna bite. =P Ty Might. >.> LOL.
To get things started, a few things you may have noticed about my blog. Nothing big, just Counters. A Real-time All Hits counter, and a Unique Visitor counter. Just thought it'd be kinda interesting. Wish I could get the unique visitor to start from the beginning of my blog, but sadly it isn't part of Blogger so there's no way. =/
Another change would be, headache-wise. It's technically a change, but it's to be expected. My 24/7 headache has grown a bit in intensity, as well as I'm now more susceptible to headache spikes. This is because I'm out of preventatives at the moment. Also means it's no longer lowering my blood pressure. What this means is, since my body was use to the lower blood pressure, it was use to running on some "low" setting. I'm just going to say that for lack of a better phrase. Now it's running without limitations, so it's on "normal". The only problem is, my body isn't use to it, so not only am I feeling more awake, I'm also burning through more energy and getting tired faster, which sucks. And just to show the difference, normal blood pressure is 120/80 and at 4 pills it was at 84/60. And for the record, I'm taking 5, so it's even lower than that.
A bit bigger would be my Uki (1995 Suzuki Sidekick). It's permanently KO'd. Even the mechanic couldn't find out what was wrong. He said he could take a longer, more thorough look into things, but I don't want to pay him more for nothing. So I posted it up on this website "Craigs List". It's kinda cool for people who want to post what they have to sell, online. And you can search about things in your area. And it's free to use. =) I've gotten only ONE offer of cash, and then some stupid people messaging me. Including someone with extremely poor grammar, and someone who wanted to give me some cash AND trade his old jeep. Which I'm guessing doesn't work. If it did, why would he be looking for mine, which clearly states that it needs some work? >.>
I have also officially purchased the plane ticket to get to Ty's. The times have been cleared by both families, so we should have no problem. I believe I have $130 saved up in spending cash right now, and will deposit around $200 each paycheck until I leave. I even have a Countdown until I arrive at Tyler's. =) http://www.timeanddate.com/counters/customcounter.html?month=12&day=27&year=2009&hour=20&min=25&sec=00&p0=142
Finally, dad's moving back in. Yes, we're still moving to the new house, but mom and dad are going to give it another try. Mom asks to not be disappointed in her, but she's just getting overwhelmed with everything. Which is pretty understandable actually. I'll still be on mom's side and help her out as much as I can, and I'll also be nice to my dad as much as I am able... But I do hate man-whores, and dad is a major one, simple as that.
So, there you have it. I'm posting more, as promised. And look at all that can happen in a few days? XD And here I thought my life was boring. *rolls eyes*
Oh, and btw, I have learned Tyler is even more unique! An Anime/Video Game lover who has not seen Final Fantasy Advent Children, OR have played a Super Mario Bros. game. (The old style where you run to the right? =P) Makes me feel kinda old. XD *Turns to Tyler* It's ok though hun, ya know I love ya! =)
And I see my Unique Visitors climbing, but still a lack of comments.. Sheesh people, commentary isn't required but, if you have something to say or ask, feel free. I'm not gonna bite. =P Ty Might. >.> LOL.
Friday, November 13, 2009
The Beginning of the End...?
Today is my last day of being a teenager... Actually it kinda bothers me, but at the same time I just, don't care. My youth is pretty much gone... My childhood is over... I've almost lived TWO decades! (Though I've witnessed 3 decades technically. Was born in the 89).
Though honestly Tara (Whom I thought had pretty much vanished. I'd see her online but neither of us would start a convo.. Just figured she'd moved on and found other friends, and I wasn't needed.) But she wished me an early birthday for Saturday.. I had to stop and think, and then realised it was almost my birthday. I laughed just out of spite, of me forgetting my own birthday! Then my own mother texts me, reminding me again that this is my last day of being a teenager. (Was driving home after work, 1:00am so technically it was Nov 13th)
I'm also out of preventatives... Yay... My body gets to add more tension by, working harder now that nothing is keeping the blood pressure low (Which was a side-effect of the preventatives that I got use), as well as now there's nothing limiting my headaches... I hate this feeling... It's like, with the preventatives I was half asleep, and now I've fully woken up and realize just how heavy my body is, or just how much the headaches really bother me... And of course my heart beats faster/harder which sucks at times when I can feel it without even putting my hand over my sweatshirt. (Which yes, if you put your hand on my sweatshirt, or even the chain around my neck, you can feel the beat of my heart..)
I also just heard that my sister got a speeding ticket. 16, so that sucks. Caught doing a 47 in a 30 while driving out of Sherman. Which if you ask me, is completely stupid. Not even 1/4 of a mile away, the speed limit is changed to 55. I bet she could have looked a little down the road and saw the sign for crying out loud. But, rules are rules, and you should always be careful. Especially in Sherman, too many hiding spots available for them.
And last, before I go... Whoever is giving my number out, I hate you. -.- I've been getting random calls from different numbers.. Some of them don't even make sense.. "2" "+1002" Those aren't even real numbers, how can they dial mine? -.-
Thanks for reading you guys.. .. .. Well, girls + Rick (cousin) lol. Still dunno why you guys bother reading, I should be putting you all to sleep...
Great.. now I thought of chloe and how she read my blog.. *sighs* lame.. Just.. .. .. Lame..
[EDIT] Sorry... Didn't mention anything about Tyler. o.0 Things with her are going ok. Got into a little dispute about illegal and laws and how you should obey them (There are exceptions in my book). What's funny is we solve our little issues within a day. We don't let them go unresolved. Working things out is VERY important in a relationship. Honestly the only reason I came back to edit it was because she was a tad bothered that she wasn't mentioned in this post at all, but I didn't mind. I had updates to mention anyways, =P And unlike most bf's, I do what I can to make my gf happy. ^.^ (Sorry if that hurts anybody for any reason. >.>)
I love you, Tyler. Sorry that I miss Chloe.. As I've explained at times, she was just, my best friend for a very long time and.. vanished.. =/ But I know your territorial, and you don't like me missing someone that much, or pouring such strong emotions about someone else. I'd feel the same way in your shoes.. All I can do, which feels wrong, is to ask you to put up with me missing her, and to please understand that nobody will ever be as important as you, EVER. I love you so much. I have thought many others might have been my soul mate, but I know without a doubt that YOU are mine. =)
Though honestly Tara (Whom I thought had pretty much vanished. I'd see her online but neither of us would start a convo.. Just figured she'd moved on and found other friends, and I wasn't needed.) But she wished me an early birthday for Saturday.. I had to stop and think, and then realised it was almost my birthday. I laughed just out of spite, of me forgetting my own birthday! Then my own mother texts me, reminding me again that this is my last day of being a teenager. (Was driving home after work, 1:00am so technically it was Nov 13th)
I'm also out of preventatives... Yay... My body gets to add more tension by, working harder now that nothing is keeping the blood pressure low (Which was a side-effect of the preventatives that I got use), as well as now there's nothing limiting my headaches... I hate this feeling... It's like, with the preventatives I was half asleep, and now I've fully woken up and realize just how heavy my body is, or just how much the headaches really bother me... And of course my heart beats faster/harder which sucks at times when I can feel it without even putting my hand over my sweatshirt. (Which yes, if you put your hand on my sweatshirt, or even the chain around my neck, you can feel the beat of my heart..)
I also just heard that my sister got a speeding ticket. 16, so that sucks. Caught doing a 47 in a 30 while driving out of Sherman. Which if you ask me, is completely stupid. Not even 1/4 of a mile away, the speed limit is changed to 55. I bet she could have looked a little down the road and saw the sign for crying out loud. But, rules are rules, and you should always be careful. Especially in Sherman, too many hiding spots available for them.
And last, before I go... Whoever is giving my number out, I hate you. -.- I've been getting random calls from different numbers.. Some of them don't even make sense.. "2" "+1002" Those aren't even real numbers, how can they dial mine? -.-
Thanks for reading you guys.. .. .. Well, girls + Rick (cousin) lol. Still dunno why you guys bother reading, I should be putting you all to sleep...
Great.. now I thought of chloe and how she read my blog.. *sighs* lame.. Just.. .. .. Lame..
[EDIT] Sorry... Didn't mention anything about Tyler. o.0 Things with her are going ok. Got into a little dispute about illegal and laws and how you should obey them (There are exceptions in my book). What's funny is we solve our little issues within a day. We don't let them go unresolved. Working things out is VERY important in a relationship. Honestly the only reason I came back to edit it was because she was a tad bothered that she wasn't mentioned in this post at all, but I didn't mind. I had updates to mention anyways, =P And unlike most bf's, I do what I can to make my gf happy. ^.^ (Sorry if that hurts anybody for any reason. >.>)
I love you, Tyler. Sorry that I miss Chloe.. As I've explained at times, she was just, my best friend for a very long time and.. vanished.. =/ But I know your territorial, and you don't like me missing someone that much, or pouring such strong emotions about someone else. I'd feel the same way in your shoes.. All I can do, which feels wrong, is to ask you to put up with me missing her, and to please understand that nobody will ever be as important as you, EVER. I love you so much. I have thought many others might have been my soul mate, but I know without a doubt that YOU are mine. =)
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
New House!!! (Random Updates Included)
We're close to moving to a new house. It's bigger, it's nicer, it's more expensive (of course), but it's worth the money if you ask me. We've got pretty much everything cleaned up and set up for us to just move our stuff into that house. There is a small issue.. See, in this house, we have all these pictuers, and stands up against the walls, and book shelves.. In the new house, that's extremely limited. Most of the walls are windows, or doors, or heating vents. -.- We should be moving into it within a week or two.
Gaming, really haven't done much. I'm waiting, patiently, for Guild Wars 2 that won't be till 2012!!! But it'll be an awesome game. Basically like WoW (World of Warcraft) but STILL no monthly fee's!!! Though I have to admit, I've often found myself thinking of Ultima Online.. Damn you Realm Life!! You got me addicted, and then poofed! >.<>.>
Work, it's normal. They seem to be hiring a LOT of people now.. I think they're preparing for the holidays.. That's gonna be a nightmare..
VISITING TYLER!!! The date is comming closer! Tomorrow I hope to be up early enough to deposit more money into my bank account to buy the ticket online. I keep pushing it off and if I wait too much longer, prices are gonna sky-rocket. I can honestly say I've never looked forward to anything this much in my entire life, lol. Though I am a bit scared to be honest. Not from what you might think though. I'm afraid they won't let me have my game system and games (in a duffel bag of course) as Carry-On luggage.. If I can't, and they end up losing it, I'm going to be soo pissseedd. >< I don't want my games, OR Ps3, OR Laptop to get lost or stolen..
As for additional notes.. I see that my readers haven't stopped, they're just keeping quiet about it. o.0 My cousin, Ricky, seems to be reading once in a while. (The weirdo who is like, 14, and 6'2''.. .. .. I'm not joking). Cynthia has returned, and is safe, and has kept up-to-date. Though that's a bit of a touchy subject.. And then now I just realised Stacey reads this too. o.0 She was part of Realm Life, and one of the 1337 members. One of the few who stood out, and if anybody spent any time on the server, would probably recognize the user name "Berko" lol.
Thanks for dealing with the slow updates. I know I need to post more, but I'm just afraid it'll become boring when I just talk about day-to-day stuff.. I'll try though! ^.^
I love you Tyler! I know you read more than anybody else. XD <3 <3 <3
Gaming, really haven't done much. I'm waiting, patiently, for Guild Wars 2 that won't be till 2012!!! But it'll be an awesome game. Basically like WoW (World of Warcraft) but STILL no monthly fee's!!! Though I have to admit, I've often found myself thinking of Ultima Online.. Damn you Realm Life!! You got me addicted, and then poofed! >.<>.>
Work, it's normal. They seem to be hiring a LOT of people now.. I think they're preparing for the holidays.. That's gonna be a nightmare..
VISITING TYLER!!! The date is comming closer! Tomorrow I hope to be up early enough to deposit more money into my bank account to buy the ticket online. I keep pushing it off and if I wait too much longer, prices are gonna sky-rocket. I can honestly say I've never looked forward to anything this much in my entire life, lol. Though I am a bit scared to be honest. Not from what you might think though. I'm afraid they won't let me have my game system and games (in a duffel bag of course) as Carry-On luggage.. If I can't, and they end up losing it, I'm going to be soo pissseedd. >< I don't want my games, OR Ps3, OR Laptop to get lost or stolen..
As for additional notes.. I see that my readers haven't stopped, they're just keeping quiet about it. o.0 My cousin, Ricky, seems to be reading once in a while. (The weirdo who is like, 14, and 6'2''.. .. .. I'm not joking). Cynthia has returned, and is safe, and has kept up-to-date. Though that's a bit of a touchy subject.. And then now I just realised Stacey reads this too. o.0 She was part of Realm Life, and one of the 1337 members. One of the few who stood out, and if anybody spent any time on the server, would probably recognize the user name "Berko" lol.
Thanks for dealing with the slow updates. I know I need to post more, but I'm just afraid it'll become boring when I just talk about day-to-day stuff.. I'll try though! ^.^
I love you Tyler! I know you read more than anybody else. XD <3 <3 <3
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