The Beginning of the End...?

Today is my last day of being a teenager... Actually it kinda bothers me, but at the same time I just, don't care. My youth is pretty much gone... My childhood is over... I've almost lived TWO decades! (Though I've witnessed 3 decades technically. Was born in the 89).

Though honestly Tara (Whom I thought had pretty much vanished. I'd see her online but neither of us would start a convo.. Just figured she'd moved on and found other friends, and I wasn't needed.) But she wished me an early birthday for Saturday.. I had to stop and think, and then realised it was almost my birthday. I laughed just out of spite, of me forgetting my own birthday! Then my own mother texts me, reminding me again that this is my last day of being a teenager. (Was driving home after work, 1:00am so technically it was Nov 13th)

I'm also out of preventatives... Yay... My body gets to add more tension by, working harder now that nothing is keeping the blood pressure low (Which was a side-effect of the preventatives that I got use), as well as now there's nothing limiting my headaches... I hate this feeling... It's like, with the preventatives I was half asleep, and now I've fully woken up and realize just how heavy my body is, or just how much the headaches really bother me... And of course my heart beats faster/harder which sucks at times when I can feel it without even putting my hand over my sweatshirt. (Which yes, if you put your hand on my sweatshirt, or even the chain around my neck, you can feel the beat of my heart..)

I also just heard that my sister got a speeding ticket. 16, so that sucks. Caught doing a 47 in a 30 while driving out of Sherman. Which if you ask me, is completely stupid. Not even 1/4 of a mile away, the speed limit is changed to 55. I bet she could have looked a little down the road and saw the sign for crying out loud. But, rules are rules, and you should always be careful. Especially in Sherman, too many hiding spots available for them.

And last, before I go... Whoever is giving my number out, I hate you. -.- I've been getting random calls from different numbers.. Some of them don't even make sense.. "2" "+1002" Those aren't even real numbers, how can they dial mine? -.-

Thanks for reading you guys.. .. .. Well, girls + Rick (cousin) lol. Still dunno why you guys bother reading, I should be putting you all to sleep...

Great.. now I thought of chloe and how she read my blog.. *sighs* lame.. Just.. .. .. Lame..

[EDIT] Sorry... Didn't mention anything about Tyler. o.0 Things with her are going ok. Got into a little dispute about illegal and laws and how you should obey them (There are exceptions in my book). What's funny is we solve our little issues within a day. We don't let them go unresolved. Working things out is VERY important in a relationship. Honestly the only reason I came back to edit it was because she was a tad bothered that she wasn't mentioned in this post at all, but I didn't mind. I had updates to mention anyways, =P And unlike most bf's, I do what I can to make my gf happy. ^.^ (Sorry if that hurts anybody for any reason. >.>)

I love you, Tyler. Sorry that I miss Chloe.. As I've explained at times, she was just, my best friend for a very long time and.. vanished.. =/ But I know your territorial, and you don't like me missing someone that much, or pouring such strong emotions about someone else. I'd feel the same way in your shoes.. All I can do, which feels wrong, is to ask you to put up with me missing her, and to please understand that nobody will ever be as important as you, EVER. I love you so much. I have thought many others might have been my soul mate, but I know without a doubt that YOU are mine. =)