The title is a song from my favorite artist, Frou Frou. I couldn't quite think of a proper title for the things I wanted to say, but this pretty much sums it up.
First off, I'd like to note that my old gamer friend, Tara AKA Sapphire, has come into contact with me and we're going to attempt to be friends, again. We've had many attempts but, well something about us seems to clash, causing a fight.. Then we say things we don't necessarily mean, our friendship gets ruined for a length of time, before one of us makes the move to approach the other, we both appologize, and move on... I don't like the pattern because it means there's going to be another fight further down the line but I hope this is the final time we patch things up and we stay friends. She's improving her life as I am attempting to improve mine. Jade and Chloe have been a huge help.. Sofi is also being helpful. More-so each day.
That brings me to the next point... I'm not sure if she'd want me to mention her name, but, as I'm sure she'll read this eventually because I refuse to post until she comments this blog-post, I feel as though I must say her name in order to make a, sort of dedication to her.. Jade..
First off, that's a pretty name, isn't it? I've known an Amber, a couple Crystal's, Tara's username was Sapphire.. I like when people have names of beautiful things, because it adds to their own beauty. Second, she's not only amazingly beautiful (as it seems my newer friends are, as well as Tara.. How can a guy so unlucky as me, be friends with so many beautiful girls? o.0) but she is also smart. Maybe not so much book smart, but psychologically, she understands her own actions and emotions more-so than many others do. While others may be confused on why they feel this way or act that way, she knows what she's doing and why. That's like, stepping back and watching/analyzing yourself, which takes guts. *Smirks* Her convo's are memorable. Spoken with depth and not just shallow randomness just to kill time.
But as of late, something odd has been occuring... Not only has midnight chats come to a screeching hault, but something is definately off... It's like... Well, let me put it this way. It's like watching someone you care alot about, defend themselves against unspeakable odds... Watching them take hit after hit... And as much as you want to help... You can't.. I want to help her but I don't know how. She deserves to be happy and lately she's been every other emotion BUT happy.
If anyone else is in a similar situation, is there any way to reach them and help them? I guess all I can do for now is, sit on the side-line's and wait for her to tell me what I can do.. I really do generally care about her as a friend and I don't like seeing her in any pain of any kind.. And no that's not in a selfish way, I don't want to help her just to ease my own worry, please do NOT get that impression.. I'd take any pain of hers and bear it myself if it was possible...
Ok, now I have no idea what other things I wanted to say. I just wish Jade would feel better and I felt like making a post to anounce it. That she means THAT much to me, as a friend, that I want everyone to know... And like I said earlier, I won't make another blog post until she responds to this post, even if it's with "...".
Thursday, April 30, 2009
Sunday, April 26, 2009
Personality Test... Hit a Bullseye?
Attempting to NOT be anti-social (Or really trying to grab onto some sorta ledge as I plummet into the darkness) I have joined "FastCupid" which is, not only a dating service, but you can also just look for friends. Their profiles are definately more in-depth than BuddyStumbler.
Anyways, part of setting up my full profile, there's a personality test.. It hit me on the dot! o.0
Orothe has an Introverted iNtuitive Feeling Judger (INFJ) personality commonly referred to as "The Mystic Writer".
Anyways, part of setting up my full profile, there's a personality test.. It hit me on the dot! o.0
Orothe has an Introverted iNtuitive Feeling Judger (INFJ) personality commonly referred to as "The Mystic Writer".
INFJ when in love
When it comes to affairs of the heart, you prefer to express yourself with your pen: poetry, journal writing, and tender notes left on the bathroom mirror are your favorite methods of communicating your love and devotion. As a Mystic Writer (only about 2 percent of the population), you tend to devote most of your time and energy to your mate. In fact, you can be quite content having your partner as your sole source of quality companionship - as your best and only friend. Unfortunately, this near-obsession with one individual as your sole source of emotional support could cause you grief. You may decide to avoid your loved ones and spend all your time with your partner, only to find out later, perhaps much later, that he or she is absolutely wrong for you. In the mean time, you prolong a bad relationship by deluding yourself - with your highly developed sense of imagination - into believing he or she is the right one.
INFJ where to meet
Where can you meet a Mystic Writer? Mystic Writers are the most reclusive of the Meaning Seeker LoveTypes. You may have a hard time unearthing them because they often enjoy kicking back at home: reading, writing, thinking, praying, meditating, or listening to music. Excellent places to meet Mystic Writers include churches, synagogues, or other religious institutions. Although any of the LoveTypes may be involved in religious or spiritual activities, Mystic Writers are especially known for their spiritual (although not necessarily religious in the traditional sense) nature.
Anybody agree that it is me, disagree, or have any comments on it at all? Though, of course, none are expected. (A few of my posts have no comments, but you don't see me complaining... I just like to get out what's bothering me or what's on my mind.)
Creeping Shadow
Things were going good for a little while... Seems as though I'm being pushed into being anti-social again, so I'm doing everything I can NOT to let that happen again. I have joined Chatango, I'm watching BuddyStumbler more-often, and reaching out to talk to people in games more.
I don't know... I mean, I had my light but it seems to have grown faint... To the point, I honestly don't know where my light has gone for a few days... Jade, my awesome midnight chat-buddy, has also not been on for days... And just yesterday I crossed a boundry while talking with a friend... I still can never see that comfortable line of theirs until I cross over it. -.- Old friends are slowly disappearing, new friends are disappearing at a faster rate... Is it something I'm doing? If so, why hasn't anybody said something? Or is the friendship just that fragile? Or maybe Fate's slowly making it's final moves... After throwing all of it's pawns at me, now it's bringing out the heavy artillary... Wow, a chess metaphor. I don't even know how to fully play chess, lol.
My heart aches... I won't give up, of course, but... At this point, I don't even know what I'm fighting for exactly, or where I'm headed... Heh... Just my luck, I suppose...
I don't know... I mean, I had my light but it seems to have grown faint... To the point, I honestly don't know where my light has gone for a few days... Jade, my awesome midnight chat-buddy, has also not been on for days... And just yesterday I crossed a boundry while talking with a friend... I still can never see that comfortable line of theirs until I cross over it. -.- Old friends are slowly disappearing, new friends are disappearing at a faster rate... Is it something I'm doing? If so, why hasn't anybody said something? Or is the friendship just that fragile? Or maybe Fate's slowly making it's final moves... After throwing all of it's pawns at me, now it's bringing out the heavy artillary... Wow, a chess metaphor. I don't even know how to fully play chess, lol.
My heart aches... I won't give up, of course, but... At this point, I don't even know what I'm fighting for exactly, or where I'm headed... Heh... Just my luck, I suppose...
Thursday, April 23, 2009
Weee! A Wii!!!
Ok I'm lieing, sorta. I DID just get a Wii but I'm not all that excited lol. Wii sports is semi-fun, for about the first 10 minutes. Then I got this Overkill zombie game of some sort. They definately aim for the lame, bad-writting humor. They fail, but they're still semi-amusing. Of course like every other zombie game, it's too dark, but at least the crosshairs turn red when it's on a Zombie, so that helps. Levels are really long and, if you die, you can sacrafice half your points to continue. That ensures you can beat the game, however you need points to upgrade your guns or just plain purchase new ones.
Tomorrow I'll get a 2nd controller and a couple new games. Probably Super Smash Bros Melee (Which I loved the first one, though I've played a demo at best-buy and know that it doesnt' really require much shaking movement of controllers to play.) Or this weird sword game. You'd think there'd be more sword games. o.0 Anyways, any suggestions for games would be greatly appreciated. I can't promote the Wii, or go against it yet, but I can tell you putting it together is a pain in the butt. There is the usual connecting it to the TV via the Yellow, Red, and White cords, and the usual power cord. But there's also a Motion Censor bar, Motion Censor Stand, Wii Stand, You must Sync remotes to the Wii, You must put the batteries in Wii controler which requires you to take out the gel cover, then they tell you that you should put it back on... *sighs* Yeah, pain in the butt...
Tomorrow I'll get a 2nd controller and a couple new games. Probably Super Smash Bros Melee (Which I loved the first one, though I've played a demo at best-buy and know that it doesnt' really require much shaking movement of controllers to play.) Or this weird sword game. You'd think there'd be more sword games. o.0 Anyways, any suggestions for games would be greatly appreciated. I can't promote the Wii, or go against it yet, but I can tell you putting it together is a pain in the butt. There is the usual connecting it to the TV via the Yellow, Red, and White cords, and the usual power cord. But there's also a Motion Censor bar, Motion Censor Stand, Wii Stand, You must Sync remotes to the Wii, You must put the batteries in Wii controler which requires you to take out the gel cover, then they tell you that you should put it back on... *sighs* Yeah, pain in the butt...
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Confused...
Have you ever felt like the entire time you've been working on something, you've been doing it wrong? Have you ever felt like the path you were taking in life, just ended up being a circle? I feel as though I've been putting together a puzzle, and I started making real progress, then noticed the 1 puzzle I thought I was working on, was really a few puzzles mixed together. -.-
Being so close to my light.. I thought I had finally found the one.. She really is my dream girl in every way.. Except for the rejection, of course... I didn't dream of that happening, but that does seem like Fate.. Finally give me something so amazing, giving me such hope, such a window of opportunity, then to have it shut in my face..
They say it is better to have loved and lost, than to have ever loved at all... I would like to have met this person and asked what they thought love felt like. I honestly don't believe they loved anyone and made that phrase out of ignorance. Which brings another saying, Ignorance is Bliss... What you don't know, can't hurt you. That's mostly true, but doesn't that kind of go with, if you have no expectations, you cannot be disappointed. I think all things worth while have some sort of risk involved.
I'm not sure what to do though. Fate seems to constantly toy with me at literally every turn. The only time I get a break is just while Fate sets up the next big thing. I don't know if I can handle too much bigger than being rejected by my light. And my headaches seem to be getting a tad worse. =.= I'm not sure what I'm doing anymore, or where I'm going.. On my path, I'm just leaning against a tree and staring at the ground. Sounds like I'm depressed, which may be true, but I'm mostly just tired... Tired of trying to only gain disapointment in the end. Besides, the way Fate's going, it'd eventually show me my special someone.. But they would tell me that they were fate themselves or something.. That kinda irony I can totally see happening.. *sighs*
Has anybody else felt this lost? Felt like giving up? If so.. Have you? Or have you found something to renew your drive?
Being so close to my light.. I thought I had finally found the one.. She really is my dream girl in every way.. Except for the rejection, of course... I didn't dream of that happening, but that does seem like Fate.. Finally give me something so amazing, giving me such hope, such a window of opportunity, then to have it shut in my face..
They say it is better to have loved and lost, than to have ever loved at all... I would like to have met this person and asked what they thought love felt like. I honestly don't believe they loved anyone and made that phrase out of ignorance. Which brings another saying, Ignorance is Bliss... What you don't know, can't hurt you. That's mostly true, but doesn't that kind of go with, if you have no expectations, you cannot be disappointed. I think all things worth while have some sort of risk involved.
I'm not sure what to do though. Fate seems to constantly toy with me at literally every turn. The only time I get a break is just while Fate sets up the next big thing. I don't know if I can handle too much bigger than being rejected by my light. And my headaches seem to be getting a tad worse. =.= I'm not sure what I'm doing anymore, or where I'm going.. On my path, I'm just leaning against a tree and staring at the ground. Sounds like I'm depressed, which may be true, but I'm mostly just tired... Tired of trying to only gain disapointment in the end. Besides, the way Fate's going, it'd eventually show me my special someone.. But they would tell me that they were fate themselves or something.. That kinda irony I can totally see happening.. *sighs*
Has anybody else felt this lost? Felt like giving up? If so.. Have you? Or have you found something to renew your drive?
Thursday, April 16, 2009
50 Random Things (It's Jade's Fault)
Yeah, that's right Jade, it's all your fault I'm doing this. I liked reading yours so much I couldn't help but attempt to make one myself. ^.^ lol.. Here's my lame attempt at it. -.- (Unlike Jade, I'm gonna number them, because if I don't, I'm not gonna know if I hit 50 or go over it.)
50 Random things about me that you may or may not know!
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1. I'm obsessed with Frou Frou/Imogen Heap, yet oddly I don't love her eyes. =/
2. I'm an Eye person. True Beauty lies within one's Eye.
3. I love working but hate doing someone else's work.
4. I love girly movies. Just watched "The Perfect Man" earlier. (Yeah, with Hillary Duff)
5. I think Hillary Duff is extremely attractive.
6. I've got almost 10GB of porn. -.-'
7. I hate male AND teenage hormones!
8. Just switched browsers from Flashpeak Slimbrowser to Mozilla Firefox.
9. I hate how Firefox has no "Favorites" list AND how the Bookmarks is semi-complicated.
10. The main character in the new Hulk movie, as well as the main character in "The Illusionist" is the only guy I'd go gay for... I love his voice.. >.>
11. I've illegally downloaded over $600 worth of Torrents. (Blog's are for fun, and there's no way to tell if this is really me or an imposter, thus this blog is not legally binding.. HA, got myself outa that one.)
12. I love youtube. From Action AMV's to Bottle Rockets hitting Crotches. XD
13. Oddly enough my computer just froze for 5 seconds. No mouse movement, no music playing, ect.
14. I'm a Hardcore Gamer, but an expert/oddball at RPG's.. Yes, that pretty much means I'm an expert at clicking buttons and using up ALOT of time.. Oddball means, I try to be different. Everyone's taming Dragons? Well I'm gonna go train a bunny and I'll meet you in the arena. =P
15. My trained Bunny actually did beat a small dragon. XD
16. I LOVE Cheesecake.
17. I can't swim very well, and usually avoid doing so.
18. I hate sunlight. It gives a chance of cancer, burns your skin, slowly cooks the planet, ect..
19. I LOVE the moon and night-time during the spring/summer/early fall. I love the breeze, the warm night air, ect.
20. I'm a sucker for anything Romantic.
21. I'm a good listener, even to strangers. Somehow random stories that don't affect me in any way, interest me.
22. I ask way too personal of questions.. I know this, but curiosity gets the best of me.
23. I wear a chain with 17 rings on it, symbolising the weight of 17 failed relationships.
24. My fav color is Black, but my 2nd fav is actually a dark pink. >.>
25. I dont' care for dogs or cats, I just love MY puppy.
26. I don't value my own life. Not afraid of death because I just don't care.
27. I honestly don't think I'll ever get more than a few friend views from this blog, and I even think they'll lose interest pretty fast.
28. I press buttons when I see them... Good thing I don't work any place too important. >.>
29. I'll work at beating a game, even if it's boring the hell outa me. Some impulse that I must beat a game I started.
30. I hate games that end too fast. I finish it and ask myself, "Ok, now what? Is it over? That's lame." (Hence why I play RPG's.. They last longer. ^.^ Sometimes too long. >.>)
31. Can't believe it's only #31.
32. I've had about a week-long obsession a few years ago about both Hentai AND Beastiality... Yeah I know, flame me over e-mail and not here. >.> Don't ask me why, I haven't looked at them since, I just found it incredibly arousing at the time. XD
33. I like porn stories more than porn movies. (Isn't that kinda girly or something?)
34. I actually liked Britney Spears and Back Street Boys at one point. Yes I feel ashamed kinda. Who didn't get sucked in? XD
35. LOVES Iced Coffee WAY more than hot coffee, regardless of cream/sugar/creamer.
36. I've taken out a fresh oil stain from a white tablecloth. (Secret is Paint Thinner, and about 20 wash's with fabric softener to get the smell out.)
37. Has thought about each one of his friends "What would it be like if we were going out?" (Except guy friends, but I have few of those regardless.)
38. I know this sounds evil but I don't love my family like others say they do. I don't get the concept of it. I care about my mom and dont' want her hurt.. My dad can go to hell. My sisters dig their own graves with trouble they get into on purpose.. But I can't sit here and say "I love them" because it feels empty.
39. I don't think I'll ever find that special someone, but I have to keep trying regardless.
40. I love old/wise quotes.
41. I love martial arts movies. (Not old ones, where the acting and fighting looks bad.)
42. I have horrible hand-writing.
43. I type very fast.
44. I don't actually read. I skim over the words and the brain comprehends what words are being put into what context to find out the meaning/point of the words/sentence. Thus being able to "understand" a page of a book faster than actually reading it word-by-word.
45. I have headaches 24/7.
46. I hate sleeping/resting. I feel like I'm wasting valuable time.
47. I have a very strong immune system. My entire family was sick, and I even finished off my mom's milkshake from Mc D's and I didn't get sick. (No funny jokes about mom's milkshake..)
48. I think "your mom" jokes are lame, and also came from the very first mother insult, which was "Son of a Bitch" thus the phrase only worked on males, and insulted their mom's so the male would take offense and want to defend her.
49. I have no idea why people smoke, drink, or do drugs. Wasting money to slowly kill yourself or not remember a part of your life is like paying to sleep, minus the getting rest, and/or paying to get sick.
50. I hate not wearing a sweatshirt. Summer, Winter, Fall, Summer. Blizzard, Heat-wave, if I'm out of the house, I'm wearing a sweat-shirt. Usually a black one. ^.^
Wow, I did it, yay! ^.^ It's all your fault, Jade. =P I was thinking about doing random 100 to top ya, but I guess if anyone wants to know me more, then they can contact me. XD
50 Random things about me that you may or may not know!
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1. I'm obsessed with Frou Frou/Imogen Heap, yet oddly I don't love her eyes. =/
2. I'm an Eye person. True Beauty lies within one's Eye.
3. I love working but hate doing someone else's work.
4. I love girly movies. Just watched "The Perfect Man" earlier. (Yeah, with Hillary Duff)
5. I think Hillary Duff is extremely attractive.
6. I've got almost 10GB of porn. -.-'
7. I hate male AND teenage hormones!
8. Just switched browsers from Flashpeak Slimbrowser to Mozilla Firefox.
9. I hate how Firefox has no "Favorites" list AND how the Bookmarks is semi-complicated.
10. The main character in the new Hulk movie, as well as the main character in "The Illusionist" is the only guy I'd go gay for... I love his voice.. >.>
11. I've illegally downloaded over $600 worth of Torrents. (Blog's are for fun, and there's no way to tell if this is really me or an imposter, thus this blog is not legally binding.. HA, got myself outa that one.)
12. I love youtube. From Action AMV's to Bottle Rockets hitting Crotches. XD
13. Oddly enough my computer just froze for 5 seconds. No mouse movement, no music playing, ect.
14. I'm a Hardcore Gamer, but an expert/oddball at RPG's.. Yes, that pretty much means I'm an expert at clicking buttons and using up ALOT of time.. Oddball means, I try to be different. Everyone's taming Dragons? Well I'm gonna go train a bunny and I'll meet you in the arena. =P
15. My trained Bunny actually did beat a small dragon. XD
16. I LOVE Cheesecake.
17. I can't swim very well, and usually avoid doing so.
18. I hate sunlight. It gives a chance of cancer, burns your skin, slowly cooks the planet, ect..
19. I LOVE the moon and night-time during the spring/summer/early fall. I love the breeze, the warm night air, ect.
20. I'm a sucker for anything Romantic.
21. I'm a good listener, even to strangers. Somehow random stories that don't affect me in any way, interest me.
22. I ask way too personal of questions.. I know this, but curiosity gets the best of me.
23. I wear a chain with 17 rings on it, symbolising the weight of 17 failed relationships.
24. My fav color is Black, but my 2nd fav is actually a dark pink. >.>
25. I dont' care for dogs or cats, I just love MY puppy.
26. I don't value my own life. Not afraid of death because I just don't care.
27. I honestly don't think I'll ever get more than a few friend views from this blog, and I even think they'll lose interest pretty fast.
28. I press buttons when I see them... Good thing I don't work any place too important. >.>
29. I'll work at beating a game, even if it's boring the hell outa me. Some impulse that I must beat a game I started.
30. I hate games that end too fast. I finish it and ask myself, "Ok, now what? Is it over? That's lame." (Hence why I play RPG's.. They last longer. ^.^ Sometimes too long. >.>)
31. Can't believe it's only #31.
32. I've had about a week-long obsession a few years ago about both Hentai AND Beastiality... Yeah I know, flame me over e-mail and not here. >.> Don't ask me why, I haven't looked at them since, I just found it incredibly arousing at the time. XD
33. I like porn stories more than porn movies. (Isn't that kinda girly or something?)
34. I actually liked Britney Spears and Back Street Boys at one point. Yes I feel ashamed kinda. Who didn't get sucked in? XD
35. LOVES Iced Coffee WAY more than hot coffee, regardless of cream/sugar/creamer.
36. I've taken out a fresh oil stain from a white tablecloth. (Secret is Paint Thinner, and about 20 wash's with fabric softener to get the smell out.)
37. Has thought about each one of his friends "What would it be like if we were going out?" (Except guy friends, but I have few of those regardless.)
38. I know this sounds evil but I don't love my family like others say they do. I don't get the concept of it. I care about my mom and dont' want her hurt.. My dad can go to hell. My sisters dig their own graves with trouble they get into on purpose.. But I can't sit here and say "I love them" because it feels empty.
39. I don't think I'll ever find that special someone, but I have to keep trying regardless.
40. I love old/wise quotes.
41. I love martial arts movies. (Not old ones, where the acting and fighting looks bad.)
42. I have horrible hand-writing.
43. I type very fast.
44. I don't actually read. I skim over the words and the brain comprehends what words are being put into what context to find out the meaning/point of the words/sentence. Thus being able to "understand" a page of a book faster than actually reading it word-by-word.
45. I have headaches 24/7.
46. I hate sleeping/resting. I feel like I'm wasting valuable time.
47. I have a very strong immune system. My entire family was sick, and I even finished off my mom's milkshake from Mc D's and I didn't get sick. (No funny jokes about mom's milkshake..)
48. I think "your mom" jokes are lame, and also came from the very first mother insult, which was "Son of a Bitch" thus the phrase only worked on males, and insulted their mom's so the male would take offense and want to defend her.
49. I have no idea why people smoke, drink, or do drugs. Wasting money to slowly kill yourself or not remember a part of your life is like paying to sleep, minus the getting rest, and/or paying to get sick.
50. I hate not wearing a sweatshirt. Summer, Winter, Fall, Summer. Blizzard, Heat-wave, if I'm out of the house, I'm wearing a sweat-shirt. Usually a black one. ^.^
Wow, I did it, yay! ^.^ It's all your fault, Jade. =P I was thinking about doing random 100 to top ya, but I guess if anyone wants to know me more, then they can contact me. XD
Music FTW
Alright, first off, FTW = For The Win. It's just another way of saying "Is the best" or "Is completely awesome". All you need to remember is, if somebody says "FTW" about something, it means they really like it. Gotta love gamer terms. Or is that just internet in general? o.0 Come to think of it, how did those acronyms start? Afk and Brb... Were they invented by gamers for, in the midst of a battle, you don't have time to say the entire phrase, so we shortened them? Or did that just come from the internet in general, where people get lazy?....... Hmm.. Sorry for that random thought, lol.
Anyways, Music FTW!!! Just finished my newest music video on youtube. Instead of going for action, I went for a love-ish AMV (Anime Music Video) instead, because that's what I felt at the time. The song is "The Walk" from "Imogen Heap" and the video is ".hack//G.U. Trilogy" which won't be released in America until June 2009 (Or last time I checked at least.) But hey, the subtitles helped explain some of the parts in the video, and since you aren't listening to them talking, does it matter which language they speak? The graphics turned out very well, and you can watch it in HQ (High Quality... Which seems to be random if a video is able to or not on youtube.)
I do love music. There's always a song that describes how you are currently feeling. I love techno romance. Up-Beat yet full of emotion. Frou Frou/Imogen Heap is my fav artist/band... Yeah, while most people start as a group, get big, then go solo, she kinda did the opposite. She was with someone else and they were called Frou Frou, then went into a band Imogen Heap. Anyways, the songs range from "Close Up" to "Must Be Dreaming" and "Let Go" I know those titles mean nothing to you but if you listen to those 3, you'll see the variety of emotions. Jealous and chaos of heartache, falling in love, breaking down. Though I wouldn't suggest watching the actual music videos. Even I admit, they're weird. >.>
I would like to know, to any readers at all, what music do you listen to? Fav artist or song? And may I ask why? There are lots of people in this world with many different interests and hobbies... But we all like SOME form of music. If you think about it, Music is one way of only a few that we all have something in common with. ^.^ Can you say, one step closer to peace on earth? J/k. =P Seriously though, Music FTW! ^.^
Anyways, Music FTW!!! Just finished my newest music video on youtube. Instead of going for action, I went for a love-ish AMV (Anime Music Video) instead, because that's what I felt at the time. The song is "The Walk" from "Imogen Heap" and the video is ".hack//G.U. Trilogy" which won't be released in America until June 2009 (Or last time I checked at least.) But hey, the subtitles helped explain some of the parts in the video, and since you aren't listening to them talking, does it matter which language they speak? The graphics turned out very well, and you can watch it in HQ (High Quality... Which seems to be random if a video is able to or not on youtube.)
I do love music. There's always a song that describes how you are currently feeling. I love techno romance. Up-Beat yet full of emotion. Frou Frou/Imogen Heap is my fav artist/band... Yeah, while most people start as a group, get big, then go solo, she kinda did the opposite. She was with someone else and they were called Frou Frou, then went into a band Imogen Heap. Anyways, the songs range from "Close Up" to "Must Be Dreaming" and "Let Go" I know those titles mean nothing to you but if you listen to those 3, you'll see the variety of emotions. Jealous and chaos of heartache, falling in love, breaking down. Though I wouldn't suggest watching the actual music videos. Even I admit, they're weird. >.>
I would like to know, to any readers at all, what music do you listen to? Fav artist or song? And may I ask why? There are lots of people in this world with many different interests and hobbies... But we all like SOME form of music. If you think about it, Music is one way of only a few that we all have something in common with. ^.^ Can you say, one step closer to peace on earth? J/k. =P Seriously though, Music FTW! ^.^
Monday, April 13, 2009
Dedication to Friends and Loves (Both Past and Present)
I would like to take this time to talk about my friends and loves, from my past and my present. Yes this may be a tad boring so you can skip this entry if you don't care about something so personal, lol.
First off, my newly acquired friend, Jade. I'm no longer bored when I stay up late, or even pull all-nighters. Someone beautiful with so much in common, is truly rare to find. I swear she could be the popular girl if she wanted to be, but she just acts like herself no matter who is around. For that she earns my complete respect. She's truly awesome and I know her brother is extremely protective with her, and he'll destroy any guy who hurts her.. Well, he can count me in. ^.^
Next I'll mention Chloe... To summerize, she's the girl of my dreams. So conservative, just the right amount of being shy, and on top of that, being ok with someone being teritorial? "Rare" or even "One of a kind" doesn't begin to describe how perfect she is. I know everyone has their flaws, but Jade and Chloe have soo little of ones that they're hard to notice, let alone have them bother you or anything like that. Anyways, sadly I was rejected by Chloe. She's too good for me and deserves better anyways so I should have seen that one comming.
Jess is a girl who wants her love-story fulfilled but seems to have just as much bad luck as I do. Being beautiful, I'm guessing it's hard for her to find a good guy who just isn't after one thing. I hope she gets her love story to be like a fairy tale, kinda like that one Taylor Swift song, lol.
Brittany... A fellow Romantic who has found her love. I only wish I could find my significant other like her... She's wonderful in every way and, sadly, I hurt her to be with Ash... Mistake in more than one way.. I'm glad with the way everything turned out though, since she did find her love.
Ash.. AKA my "Ashy Hell"... Man, how to describe her.. My biggest love, my greatest pleasure, and the person that has put me through more heartache than I thought was even possible in one lifetime. My heart is truly scarred, and I will forever be teritorial, as well as insecure. I have never been more interally conflicted than with Ash. To love someone so much and want them to be happy, as well as want to be their world... While at the same time wanting to put them through hell and as much pain as they caused you. But you can't because they are a girl and, Romantics dictate, I cannot hurt a girl. I have flipped out on her, but I feel extremely guilty and feel as though I have failed as a Romantic, putting myself through pain while she is unaffected anyways... I don't know what I'll do with her, because as soon as I think we have things settled, something happens that changes something, if not everything...
For anyone I may have forgotten, I am sorry. You are still my friend and still hold importance to me, but only these people carry a special place in my heart, and always will. There was one other person.. Tara Rennie.. however after months of constant lieing to me, she requested I get over her, and so I did, but apparently she didn't want that completely, and told me to delete her and never talk to her again.. Well, I try my best to honor a girl's request, so I have done so.. I hope she is happy and has found her love. If not, then I hope she finds her love soon.
Thank you for listening. If any of my friends have a problem with this, I would be more than happy to edit it or add to it if I left someone out. The post will have (Updated : (Date)).
For anyone I do not know, keep your friends close. They are truly a godsend and can help with more than you ever know.
First off, my newly acquired friend, Jade. I'm no longer bored when I stay up late, or even pull all-nighters. Someone beautiful with so much in common, is truly rare to find. I swear she could be the popular girl if she wanted to be, but she just acts like herself no matter who is around. For that she earns my complete respect. She's truly awesome and I know her brother is extremely protective with her, and he'll destroy any guy who hurts her.. Well, he can count me in. ^.^
Next I'll mention Chloe... To summerize, she's the girl of my dreams. So conservative, just the right amount of being shy, and on top of that, being ok with someone being teritorial? "Rare" or even "One of a kind" doesn't begin to describe how perfect she is. I know everyone has their flaws, but Jade and Chloe have soo little of ones that they're hard to notice, let alone have them bother you or anything like that. Anyways, sadly I was rejected by Chloe. She's too good for me and deserves better anyways so I should have seen that one comming.
Jess is a girl who wants her love-story fulfilled but seems to have just as much bad luck as I do. Being beautiful, I'm guessing it's hard for her to find a good guy who just isn't after one thing. I hope she gets her love story to be like a fairy tale, kinda like that one Taylor Swift song, lol.
Brittany... A fellow Romantic who has found her love. I only wish I could find my significant other like her... She's wonderful in every way and, sadly, I hurt her to be with Ash... Mistake in more than one way.. I'm glad with the way everything turned out though, since she did find her love.
Ash.. AKA my "Ashy Hell"... Man, how to describe her.. My biggest love, my greatest pleasure, and the person that has put me through more heartache than I thought was even possible in one lifetime. My heart is truly scarred, and I will forever be teritorial, as well as insecure. I have never been more interally conflicted than with Ash. To love someone so much and want them to be happy, as well as want to be their world... While at the same time wanting to put them through hell and as much pain as they caused you. But you can't because they are a girl and, Romantics dictate, I cannot hurt a girl. I have flipped out on her, but I feel extremely guilty and feel as though I have failed as a Romantic, putting myself through pain while she is unaffected anyways... I don't know what I'll do with her, because as soon as I think we have things settled, something happens that changes something, if not everything...
For anyone I may have forgotten, I am sorry. You are still my friend and still hold importance to me, but only these people carry a special place in my heart, and always will. There was one other person.. Tara Rennie.. however after months of constant lieing to me, she requested I get over her, and so I did, but apparently she didn't want that completely, and told me to delete her and never talk to her again.. Well, I try my best to honor a girl's request, so I have done so.. I hope she is happy and has found her love. If not, then I hope she finds her love soon.
Thank you for listening. If any of my friends have a problem with this, I would be more than happy to edit it or add to it if I left someone out. The post will have (Updated : (Date)).
For anyone I do not know, keep your friends close. They are truly a godsend and can help with more than you ever know.
Saturday, April 11, 2009
Life Update (Wow what a lame title)
Ok, couldn't think of what this title should be, but I just thought I'd let you in on the drama I have to face...
1. Dad has cheated on mom multiple times. In fact, still talks to the last person he cheated on Mom with, who is none other than my mom's step-sister.
2. Cousins visiting right now from South Carolina I believe. (They move around alot. My uncle is in the marines.)
3. Oldest sister, Meagan, is facing a sexual charge for sleeping with and living with a boy who was 16.
4. My "Ashy Hell" is turning good. (I'll explain all about who that is and what that means in my next post about people who are close to me.)
5. Met the girl of my dreams, and got rejected... At least we're still friends...
6. Work, I've been the only one doing anything. =.=
7. Spoiled sisters getting away with anything and everything.
Yeah, those are the main things. Drama follows me like my shadow, and I hate it. Fate is constantly throwing things in my face, like a game that I cannot lose... Kinda like we're playing Chutes and Ladders (Wow, anybody else remember that game?) and EVERY time it's my turn, I get a Chute... And Fate toys with me, in ways like "Here, have another turn, it's ok." And I just get another Chute. The ONLY way Fate would let me be happy, is to build up something good before taking it all away at once.
Even if it's a battle I can't win, and I feel like giving up and not trying alot of the time, I always find something to renew my drive. I live for love and I WILL find my love, no matter what. Any manwhores (Guys who don't treat girls right) that get in my way, or any guys that hurt the one I love, better pray for mercy because they shall recieve none from me! Once I find that special someone, Fate's gonna be powerless. =P
Anyways, I am sorry for the friends that are affected by the drama in any way, even if it's as little as changing my own attitude and not acting much like myself. I guess you could say I'm an emotional person, but I'd rather think of it as, well.. I'm looking for the one I love, so my heart is open. Being vulnerable like that, it's way too easy for someone to strike me where it hurts.
Alright, I know I'm boring you by now, because I'm not even sure I'm making any sense. I don't proof read this (Ha Jade, that must drive you nuts. =P) I just type it out and push "Publish Post". If any grammer errors or spelling errors bother too many of you, I can spellcheck it. Of course, if you're a friend, you should know that I'd do pretty much anything to make you happy and keep you safe. ^.^
1. Dad has cheated on mom multiple times. In fact, still talks to the last person he cheated on Mom with, who is none other than my mom's step-sister.
2. Cousins visiting right now from South Carolina I believe. (They move around alot. My uncle is in the marines.)
3. Oldest sister, Meagan, is facing a sexual charge for sleeping with and living with a boy who was 16.
4. My "Ashy Hell" is turning good. (I'll explain all about who that is and what that means in my next post about people who are close to me.)
5. Met the girl of my dreams, and got rejected... At least we're still friends...
6. Work, I've been the only one doing anything. =.=
7. Spoiled sisters getting away with anything and everything.
Yeah, those are the main things. Drama follows me like my shadow, and I hate it. Fate is constantly throwing things in my face, like a game that I cannot lose... Kinda like we're playing Chutes and Ladders (Wow, anybody else remember that game?) and EVERY time it's my turn, I get a Chute... And Fate toys with me, in ways like "Here, have another turn, it's ok." And I just get another Chute. The ONLY way Fate would let me be happy, is to build up something good before taking it all away at once.
Even if it's a battle I can't win, and I feel like giving up and not trying alot of the time, I always find something to renew my drive. I live for love and I WILL find my love, no matter what. Any manwhores (Guys who don't treat girls right) that get in my way, or any guys that hurt the one I love, better pray for mercy because they shall recieve none from me! Once I find that special someone, Fate's gonna be powerless. =P
Anyways, I am sorry for the friends that are affected by the drama in any way, even if it's as little as changing my own attitude and not acting much like myself. I guess you could say I'm an emotional person, but I'd rather think of it as, well.. I'm looking for the one I love, so my heart is open. Being vulnerable like that, it's way too easy for someone to strike me where it hurts.
Alright, I know I'm boring you by now, because I'm not even sure I'm making any sense. I don't proof read this (Ha Jade, that must drive you nuts. =P) I just type it out and push "Publish Post". If any grammer errors or spelling errors bother too many of you, I can spellcheck it. Of course, if you're a friend, you should know that I'd do pretty much anything to make you happy and keep you safe. ^.^
Friday, April 10, 2009
The Introduction
*Smirks, taking a soft bow* The name's Tim Jude, True Romantic.
Alright, so a new friend told me about her blog, and made the suggestion that I should make one... Honestly I think my life is way too boring since over 50% of it is online anyways. But hey, what's wrong with trying, right? For any and all readers (I expect very few) thanks for listening and you can always e-mail me comments or suggestions.. Come to think of it, just e-mail me saying you're reading. XD *Sighs* Ok, here goes something...
While I'm writing this, my puppy of 1 year is begging for something. Constantly putting her head on my lap. She's half beagle, half jack russel, and all cute lol. I've got a Hot N Ready sitting beside me. I'm one of those neat eaters when I'm on my laptop.. Don't want the keyboard getting all greasy. =P
Anyways, currently addicted to Guild Wars and Seyken.. Seyken is a free online game that can be played via downloaded client OR through your browser (Or so it says, haven't tried it out yet.) It's suppose to be an old-style look to it, which it does very well, though it's also still in the works.. Not much to do. People are already level 60 something when the strongest monster is only level 20 so far, and no it's not that easy to level up. xD I do play alot of games, I just seem to get addicted to one game, then randomly lose interest and get into another. I stick around for friends. =P
I'm single, suprise suprise. Aparently Romance isn't as wanted as some women say. They're all talk, but when it comes down to it, they are either already taken or they just want some buff hot guy. *Shrugs* I've given up looking at the moment.
I love video games, Anime, Movies of all sorts, Music of all sorts, ect... Fav artist is "Frou Frou" who eventually joined others and made the group "Imogen Heap"... Odd names, I know. Not american but still in english. If you don't believe me, either listen to "Must Be Dreaming" and/or "Headlock" of which I have a music video for on youtube. Yes, the account name is "OrotheNaroom" on youtube, and I usually make action music videos. Movies I enjoy of all sorts, but scary movies don't scare me. I may watch them if they have a nice plot or they use CGI (Basically Computer Graphics) very well. If it's a Jason, Micheal Meyers, Freddy, ect... Those movies just bore me, because they take one movie, and basically make clones with a slightly different plot. They still kill in the same way, they still don't die, they scare you in the same ways, ect. Ok, maybe I'll get hate mail too. XD Pssh, who am I kidding, this will NEVER be that popular.
I drive a 1995 Suzuki Sidekick. Got it just shy of 100,000 miles, very decent shape, for $1,500. I'll remind you I'm only 19 with a dead-end job lol. Grapevine Laundry... Yeah I'm a guy who does laundry. I feel no shame in it. The typical guy won't even get off his own butt to get his own beer, while I not only DON'T drink (Do drugs or smoke), I can do laundry, and even take out most stains. Biggest one has to be a fresh oil stain from a white tablecloth. Took forever till it faded enough it disappeared. ANYWAYS my Jeep/Truck is 4 wheel drive, 4 door, and my favorite part.. It has a Power switch! Yes, that's right, to get up hills better or pull something heavy, the Power switch can be flipped to make the engine work harder. My favorite part is, when you flip it, a light kicks on in the dash that says "POWER" in red letters. Can't help but feel, well, powerful. =P
I have 3 younger sisters, 18, 16, 16. Yes, the two 16's are twins. Also have a mom and dad who have had drama in the past, but still together for now anyways. We live in Western NY.. The pointy corner.. PA is literally JUST across the street lol. And thanks to being so close to Lake Erie, and our higher elevation, we understand the meaning "Lake Effect Snow" first hand.
This post may be long but that's just a huge introduction. I apologize if somehow you got swept in and read it all.. Actually if you read it all, grats! I feel like I should give you $5 just for the work of enduring my painfully boring introduction. XD I might not post everyday but I'll try my hardest. If you have any questions, comments, complaints, suggestions, or just wanna chat, hit me up at Orothe_Naroom@hotmail.com I'm new to this whole blog thing, and this website, so I'll figure the layout after I post this. I'll leave you with one of my original romantic quotes...
"A rare gem such as yourself should never be given out freely to those that would otherwise tarnish such beaty."
Alright, so a new friend told me about her blog, and made the suggestion that I should make one... Honestly I think my life is way too boring since over 50% of it is online anyways. But hey, what's wrong with trying, right? For any and all readers (I expect very few) thanks for listening and you can always e-mail me comments or suggestions.. Come to think of it, just e-mail me saying you're reading. XD *Sighs* Ok, here goes something...
While I'm writing this, my puppy of 1 year is begging for something. Constantly putting her head on my lap. She's half beagle, half jack russel, and all cute lol. I've got a Hot N Ready sitting beside me. I'm one of those neat eaters when I'm on my laptop.. Don't want the keyboard getting all greasy. =P
Anyways, currently addicted to Guild Wars and Seyken.. Seyken is a free online game that can be played via downloaded client OR through your browser (Or so it says, haven't tried it out yet.) It's suppose to be an old-style look to it, which it does very well, though it's also still in the works.. Not much to do. People are already level 60 something when the strongest monster is only level 20 so far, and no it's not that easy to level up. xD I do play alot of games, I just seem to get addicted to one game, then randomly lose interest and get into another. I stick around for friends. =P
I'm single, suprise suprise. Aparently Romance isn't as wanted as some women say. They're all talk, but when it comes down to it, they are either already taken or they just want some buff hot guy. *Shrugs* I've given up looking at the moment.
I love video games, Anime, Movies of all sorts, Music of all sorts, ect... Fav artist is "Frou Frou" who eventually joined others and made the group "Imogen Heap"... Odd names, I know. Not american but still in english. If you don't believe me, either listen to "Must Be Dreaming" and/or "Headlock" of which I have a music video for on youtube. Yes, the account name is "OrotheNaroom" on youtube, and I usually make action music videos. Movies I enjoy of all sorts, but scary movies don't scare me. I may watch them if they have a nice plot or they use CGI (Basically Computer Graphics) very well. If it's a Jason, Micheal Meyers, Freddy, ect... Those movies just bore me, because they take one movie, and basically make clones with a slightly different plot. They still kill in the same way, they still don't die, they scare you in the same ways, ect. Ok, maybe I'll get hate mail too. XD Pssh, who am I kidding, this will NEVER be that popular.
I drive a 1995 Suzuki Sidekick. Got it just shy of 100,000 miles, very decent shape, for $1,500. I'll remind you I'm only 19 with a dead-end job lol. Grapevine Laundry... Yeah I'm a guy who does laundry. I feel no shame in it. The typical guy won't even get off his own butt to get his own beer, while I not only DON'T drink (Do drugs or smoke), I can do laundry, and even take out most stains. Biggest one has to be a fresh oil stain from a white tablecloth. Took forever till it faded enough it disappeared. ANYWAYS my Jeep/Truck is 4 wheel drive, 4 door, and my favorite part.. It has a Power switch! Yes, that's right, to get up hills better or pull something heavy, the Power switch can be flipped to make the engine work harder. My favorite part is, when you flip it, a light kicks on in the dash that says "POWER" in red letters. Can't help but feel, well, powerful. =P
I have 3 younger sisters, 18, 16, 16. Yes, the two 16's are twins. Also have a mom and dad who have had drama in the past, but still together for now anyways. We live in Western NY.. The pointy corner.. PA is literally JUST across the street lol. And thanks to being so close to Lake Erie, and our higher elevation, we understand the meaning "Lake Effect Snow" first hand.
This post may be long but that's just a huge introduction. I apologize if somehow you got swept in and read it all.. Actually if you read it all, grats! I feel like I should give you $5 just for the work of enduring my painfully boring introduction. XD I might not post everyday but I'll try my hardest. If you have any questions, comments, complaints, suggestions, or just wanna chat, hit me up at Orothe_Naroom@hotmail.com I'm new to this whole blog thing, and this website, so I'll figure the layout after I post this. I'll leave you with one of my original romantic quotes...
"A rare gem such as yourself should never be given out freely to those that would otherwise tarnish such beaty."
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