Have you ever felt like the entire time you've been working on something, you've been doing it wrong? Have you ever felt like the path you were taking in life, just ended up being a circle? I feel as though I've been putting together a puzzle, and I started making real progress, then noticed the 1 puzzle I thought I was working on, was really a few puzzles mixed together. -.-
Being so close to my light.. I thought I had finally found the one.. She really is my dream girl in every way.. Except for the rejection, of course... I didn't dream of that happening, but that does seem like Fate.. Finally give me something so amazing, giving me such hope, such a window of opportunity, then to have it shut in my face..
They say it is better to have loved and lost, than to have ever loved at all... I would like to have met this person and asked what they thought love felt like. I honestly don't believe they loved anyone and made that phrase out of ignorance. Which brings another saying, Ignorance is Bliss... What you don't know, can't hurt you. That's mostly true, but doesn't that kind of go with, if you have no expectations, you cannot be disappointed. I think all things worth while have some sort of risk involved.
I'm not sure what to do though. Fate seems to constantly toy with me at literally every turn. The only time I get a break is just while Fate sets up the next big thing. I don't know if I can handle too much bigger than being rejected by my light. And my headaches seem to be getting a tad worse. =.= I'm not sure what I'm doing anymore, or where I'm going.. On my path, I'm just leaning against a tree and staring at the ground. Sounds like I'm depressed, which may be true, but I'm mostly just tired... Tired of trying to only gain disapointment in the end. Besides, the way Fate's going, it'd eventually show me my special someone.. But they would tell me that they were fate themselves or something.. That kinda irony I can totally see happening.. *sighs*
Has anybody else felt this lost? Felt like giving up? If so.. Have you? Or have you found something to renew your drive?
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Lots of people feel like giving up. You rely too much on love. Romanticism isn't everything and shouldn't be for you.
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Ah, yeah I guess everyone has their moments of doubt.. But.. That feeling seems to happen on a regular basis with me. -.-' And I may rely too much on live, since it IS my everything... But I can't help it. No matter how hard I try, I can't think of anything else more meaningful. Maybe that's not the right word. Iunno, all I know is I'm wrapped up and obsessed with the theory and works of "Love", as well as what it does physically and emotionally... Romanticism is what I excel at most. Why have a skill if you don't use it or better yourself at it? If I don't live for love, what else should I live for?
ReplyDelete(Lol, well I'm thankful that you aren't stupid then. ^.^)