Ok, couldn't think of what this title should be, but I just thought I'd let you in on the drama I have to face...
1. Dad has cheated on mom multiple times. In fact, still talks to the last person he cheated on Mom with, who is none other than my mom's step-sister.
2. Cousins visiting right now from South Carolina I believe. (They move around alot. My uncle is in the marines.)
3. Oldest sister, Meagan, is facing a sexual charge for sleeping with and living with a boy who was 16.
4. My "Ashy Hell" is turning good. (I'll explain all about who that is and what that means in my next post about people who are close to me.)
5. Met the girl of my dreams, and got rejected... At least we're still friends...
6. Work, I've been the only one doing anything. =.=
7. Spoiled sisters getting away with anything and everything.
Yeah, those are the main things. Drama follows me like my shadow, and I hate it. Fate is constantly throwing things in my face, like a game that I cannot lose... Kinda like we're playing Chutes and Ladders (Wow, anybody else remember that game?) and EVERY time it's my turn, I get a Chute... And Fate toys with me, in ways like "Here, have another turn, it's ok." And I just get another Chute. The ONLY way Fate would let me be happy, is to build up something good before taking it all away at once.
Even if it's a battle I can't win, and I feel like giving up and not trying alot of the time, I always find something to renew my drive. I live for love and I WILL find my love, no matter what. Any manwhores (Guys who don't treat girls right) that get in my way, or any guys that hurt the one I love, better pray for mercy because they shall recieve none from me! Once I find that special someone, Fate's gonna be powerless. =P
Anyways, I am sorry for the friends that are affected by the drama in any way, even if it's as little as changing my own attitude and not acting much like myself. I guess you could say I'm an emotional person, but I'd rather think of it as, well.. I'm looking for the one I love, so my heart is open. Being vulnerable like that, it's way too easy for someone to strike me where it hurts.
Alright, I know I'm boring you by now, because I'm not even sure I'm making any sense. I don't proof read this (Ha Jade, that must drive you nuts. =P) I just type it out and push "Publish Post". If any grammer errors or spelling errors bother too many of you, I can spellcheck it. Of course, if you're a friend, you should know that I'd do pretty much anything to make you happy and keep you safe. ^.^
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Once again, good luck with your cousins. And it didn't bother me at all...
ReplyDeleteOk I'm lying, but it really didn't bother me until you spelled grammar with an E. Don't spend time spell checking though, mistakes are meant to be made =)
Hmmm
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