As most of you have seen first hand, I have not lost internet yet... We are in the process of saving for moving and Monday starts training for work...
Also, on a more personal note... Headaches and Romantic Moods seem to be battling it out. In the same 24 hours I've been in Deep Romantic Moods, and Crippling Bad Headaches.. Such constant changes have almost driven me semi-depressed.
I also apologize for the lack of blog posts. Emily is on a trip, Chloe has yet to return from such a busy school schedule to even reply to an e-mail, Sofi isn't being friends because of some lame argument and/or misunderstanding, and Ash.. Well I doubt she cares enough to keep up with blog posts.. We rarely talk anyways...
Oh, and yeah, Chloe.. I don't know what happened. She said she was busy with work and would try to reply to an e-mail.. But she hasn't logged on MSN nor replied to e-mail or blog comments. I'm extremely worried and I miss her tons..
Chloe.. My light.. Why have you faded?
Saturday, June 27, 2009
Sunday, June 21, 2009
BAd NEWS!!! IMPORTANT!!! WARNING!!!
Ha ha, everytime I see "WARNING" I think of every Mega Man boss battle. XD
Anyways, I do have bad news.. Monday, June 22nd, my dad is shutting off the entire AT&T service (Ha ha, he can pay the $175 early termination fee + $5 for every unpaid month left on the contract). I will be starting training on the 29th, of which then I get a $36 bonus for every day of training completed for the first week (4 days), and then the 2nd week of training I get paid normal hourly wages.
So, it will be at the very least, 2 weeks of no internet. Possibly 3 weeks.
I do apologize to everyone. This is just Dad's way of causing some sort of mess while Mom and Dad both move closer to a Divorce, which is 100% guaranteed going to happen.
I'll get on as soon as I have reclaimed internet. Until then, I'm sure we'll get a phone of some sort, and to those that are important, I do have phone numbers. Not that we could sit down and have too long of chat but I'd like to keep updated in your lives, and keep you updated in mine. (Especially Tyler and Emily.) If you want to give me your number, e-mail it to me at Orothe_Naroom@hotmail.com.
Anyways, I do have bad news.. Monday, June 22nd, my dad is shutting off the entire AT&T service (Ha ha, he can pay the $175 early termination fee + $5 for every unpaid month left on the contract). I will be starting training on the 29th, of which then I get a $36 bonus for every day of training completed for the first week (4 days), and then the 2nd week of training I get paid normal hourly wages.
So, it will be at the very least, 2 weeks of no internet. Possibly 3 weeks.
I do apologize to everyone. This is just Dad's way of causing some sort of mess while Mom and Dad both move closer to a Divorce, which is 100% guaranteed going to happen.
I'll get on as soon as I have reclaimed internet. Until then, I'm sure we'll get a phone of some sort, and to those that are important, I do have phone numbers. Not that we could sit down and have too long of chat but I'd like to keep updated in your lives, and keep you updated in mine. (Especially Tyler and Emily.) If you want to give me your number, e-mail it to me at Orothe_Naroom@hotmail.com.
Thursday, June 11, 2009
(Poem) Romantic And Remembrance
My heart beast strong---Falling feathers----------She sits beside
My blood flows fast,------Encircle me,------------And doesn't lie
Remembering-----------Impossible--------------Just watches too,
This pain won't last.-----How can this be?--------The days go by.
I sit behind-------------Fluffy and soft-----------Arms wrap around
An old oak tree,--------All solid white,-----------She stays with me,
And feel a breeze-------Unlike problems---------Snuggles closer
Brush across me.-------They are all light.--------Then we're both free.
The sky is clear--------The breeze blows more---My head on hers
And sun is bright,------And they ascend,---------Our bodies close,
I tune out thoughts----Repeating process--------We both need more
And heal in light.-------Happens again.----------Not just a dose.
I close my eyes---------They soar sky high------We both have a fear
And breathe real slow, --Without a care----------And a regret,
There's still a lot---------What simple life-------T'was a break up
I just don't know.--------They have to bear.-----Since we have met.
My stress degrades-----Just like my hopes------We're together
Emotions hit,-----------They're in a cloud,-------Our hearts connect,
Inside my soul---------How mom and dad--------Our memories
Something has lit.-----Must have been proud.----We both collect.
Arms wrap around----I bow my head---------We'll make new ones
A soft embrace,-------And give a sigh,--------Stay side by side,
Then disappears------Can't stand people------We'll stay right here
Without a trace.------And don't know why.----From earth, we'll hide.
My l ids shoot up------I love this hill-------------This cannot stop
My hopes rise high,---And love this tree,---------We're in a bind,
Could it be her--------It helps me look-----------Our hearts want more
Or just a lie?----------Deep inside me.-----------I hate my mind.
Alas, nothing----------The tree gives shade.------My headache hits
There's no one here,---And wind, comfort,--------I start to fall,
I'm still alone----------Doesn't matter------------I just woke up
And filled with fear.----That I've been hurt.------And lost it all.
I try to rest------------It is all clear--------------My dream shattered
Calm down a bit,-------And is all fine,------------I shed a tear,
But memories---------I have got Ash-------------Ash holds me close
Seem not to quit.-----And she's all mine.----------Consoles my fear...
My blood flows fast,------Encircle me,------------And doesn't lie
Remembering-----------Impossible--------------Just watches too,
This pain won't last.-----How can this be?--------The days go by.
I sit behind-------------Fluffy and soft-----------Arms wrap around
An old oak tree,--------All solid white,-----------She stays with me,
And feel a breeze-------Unlike problems---------Snuggles closer
Brush across me.-------They are all light.--------Then we're both free.
The sky is clear--------The breeze blows more---My head on hers
And sun is bright,------And they ascend,---------Our bodies close,
I tune out thoughts----Repeating process--------We both need more
And heal in light.-------Happens again.----------Not just a dose.
I close my eyes---------They soar sky high------We both have a fear
And breathe real slow, --Without a care----------And a regret,
There's still a lot---------What simple life-------T'was a break up
I just don't know.--------They have to bear.-----Since we have met.
My stress degrades-----Just like my hopes------We're together
Emotions hit,-----------They're in a cloud,-------Our hearts connect,
Inside my soul---------How mom and dad--------Our memories
Something has lit.-----Must have been proud.----We both collect.
Arms wrap around----I bow my head---------We'll make new ones
A soft embrace,-------And give a sigh,--------Stay side by side,
Then disappears------Can't stand people------We'll stay right here
Without a trace.------And don't know why.----From earth, we'll hide.
My l ids shoot up------I love this hill-------------This cannot stop
My hopes rise high,---And love this tree,---------We're in a bind,
Could it be her--------It helps me look-----------Our hearts want more
Or just a lie?----------Deep inside me.-----------I hate my mind.
Alas, nothing----------The tree gives shade.------My headache hits
There's no one here,---And wind, comfort,--------I start to fall,
I'm still alone----------Doesn't matter------------I just woke up
And filled with fear.----That I've been hurt.------And lost it all.
I try to rest------------It is all clear--------------My dream shattered
Calm down a bit,-------And is all fine,------------I shed a tear,
But memories---------I have got Ash-------------Ash holds me close
Seem not to quit.-----And she's all mine.----------Consoles my fear...
(Poem) Soulmate Onto Suffering
I want to help-----------My heart beats fas-----I'll do my best
I want to please,--------My chest is tight,-------To come around,
I need support----------This cannot happen----To hold my head up
And want to ease.-------It isn't right.-----------And not break down.
I try my best--------My head starts beating--My spazzing was right
And tried Romance,--And begins to throb,--My nightmares came true,
I'll stick to love-------It takes effort---------I have to face facts
Or shield and lance.---Not to sob.-----------I have... lost you...
I can't compete---------My name is Tim Jude
I just can't win,---------This sounds kind of rough,
You won't let up--------I live for love
Just strike and grin.----I'm not that tough.
My love, my life--------The good is gone
My everything---------My light is lost,
I give you freedom-----I keep thinking
You then sting.---------At what cost?
You let me in-----------I tried my best
Then took me out,------Endure the bash,
I hate you--------------It's all in vein
Without a doubt,-------So thank you, Ash.
I entertained-----------Somehow I stand
And was your toy,------My heart can beat,
For a moment----------Does this mean
I brought you joy.-------I took defeat?
You got bored----------It can't be over
And didn't try,---------It never will,
This pain is killing------The hole in my heart
I won't lie.--------------Just own't fill.
I loved you a lot--------The pain continues
And want it back,-------I must be mad,
You are evil-------------If someone would help
Something I lack.-------I'd be glad.
I do have regrets----------Somehow I still love
And a lot of pain,-----------But it can't be,
There's only so much------How does it beat
I can sustain.--------------If ripped out of me?
I want to please,--------My chest is tight,-------To come around,
I need support----------This cannot happen----To hold my head up
And want to ease.-------It isn't right.-----------And not break down.
I try my best--------My head starts beating--My spazzing was right
And tried Romance,--And begins to throb,--My nightmares came true,
I'll stick to love-------It takes effort---------I have to face facts
Or shield and lance.---Not to sob.-----------I have... lost you...
I can't compete---------My name is Tim Jude
I just can't win,---------This sounds kind of rough,
You won't let up--------I live for love
Just strike and grin.----I'm not that tough.
My love, my life--------The good is gone
My everything---------My light is lost,
I give you freedom-----I keep thinking
You then sting.---------At what cost?
You let me in-----------I tried my best
Then took me out,------Endure the bash,
I hate you--------------It's all in vein
Without a doubt,-------So thank you, Ash.
I entertained-----------Somehow I stand
And was your toy,------My heart can beat,
For a moment----------Does this mean
I brought you joy.-------I took defeat?
You got bored----------It can't be over
And didn't try,---------It never will,
This pain is killing------The hole in my heart
I won't lie.--------------Just own't fill.
I loved you a lot--------The pain continues
And want it back,-------I must be mad,
You are evil-------------If someone would help
Something I lack.-------I'd be glad.
I do have regrets----------Somehow I still love
And a lot of pain,-----------But it can't be,
There's only so much------How does it beat
I can sustain.--------------If ripped out of me?
(Poem) Light and Dark
I hate the light--------------I wonder if------------With my darkness
I love the dark,-------------I cannot last,----------I'll help you through,
I have to bite---------------Will they forget---------To shield your pain
I love to bark.--------------About my past?--------Cause I love you.
What dark I hide-----------I cannot lash-----------I'll bend backwards
And light I blind,-----------I cannot lie,------------My heart an ark,
I start to think-------------Dark or Light-----------Which one am I
I've lost my mind.----------Which One am I?-------Light or Dark?
I hate to hurt--------------You give me light
I hate the pain,------------And protection,
I can't escape--------------You tear at heart
It falls like rain.------------And recollection.
I try to run----------------You do not seem
I try to hide,--------------To heal the scar,
My body aches------------I don't know you
I just can't die.------------Or what you are.
I'm kind of scared---------You stole my heart
I have a fear,--------------You have my lust,
It's in the dark------------It has to change
When you're not here.-----This is a must.
Darkness cloaks-----------But no matter
And light reveals,----------What you attack
I tell myself----------------I'll do my best
This can't be real.----------To not lash back.
You are my light-----------I see your grin
You are my guide,----------You're having fun,
I should have known--------I guess this means
You would have lied.--------That you have won.
I do not act-----------------I'll play your game
I only talk,-----------------I'll be your pet,
I just can't seem-----------You must have changed
To walk the walk.-----------Since we have met.
I try my best---------------I'll stay with you
Endure the lash,------------I will be fine,
I am human----------------But promise me
And not some trash.--------You will stay mine.
I love the dark,-------------I cannot last,----------I'll help you through,
I have to bite---------------Will they forget---------To shield your pain
I love to bark.--------------About my past?--------Cause I love you.
What dark I hide-----------I cannot lash-----------I'll bend backwards
And light I blind,-----------I cannot lie,------------My heart an ark,
I start to think-------------Dark or Light-----------Which one am I
I've lost my mind.----------Which One am I?-------Light or Dark?
I hate to hurt--------------You give me light
I hate the pain,------------And protection,
I can't escape--------------You tear at heart
It falls like rain.------------And recollection.
I try to run----------------You do not seem
I try to hide,--------------To heal the scar,
My body aches------------I don't know you
I just can't die.------------Or what you are.
I'm kind of scared---------You stole my heart
I have a fear,--------------You have my lust,
It's in the dark------------It has to change
When you're not here.-----This is a must.
Darkness cloaks-----------But no matter
And light reveals,----------What you attack
I tell myself----------------I'll do my best
This can't be real.----------To not lash back.
You are my light-----------I see your grin
You are my guide,----------You're having fun,
I should have known--------I guess this means
You would have lied.--------That you have won.
I do not act-----------------I'll play your game
I only talk,-----------------I'll be your pet,
I just can't seem-----------You must have changed
To walk the walk.-----------Since we have met.
I try my best---------------I'll stay with you
Endure the lash,------------I will be fine,
I am human----------------But promise me
And not some trash.--------You will stay mine.
(Poem) Hopeles Romantic
Love is hard------------You strike once more---------I hate you hurt
It hurts like hell,--------I heard a crack,--------------I hate your past,
I tried to stand---------Just one moment-------------I promise you
But then I fell.---------Then I'll be back.-------------The pain won't last.
I get back up-------------I can't lose you---------I'll help you heal
To take a stand,----------I just can't think,-------And get you through,
You strike my heart------You push the limit--------By saying this
And I'm down again.------I'm at the brink.---------"I love you..."
I love, I lust--------------I love you
I disagree,----------------I'll recieve,
You always lie------------I need you
You don't need me.------To relieve.
I give you freedom-------To be without you
You then abuse,---------Would be hell,
I can see-----------------I'd break down
How you're amused.-----And even yell
I can't strike back--------I made a promise
I can't lash out,-----------No suicide,
I'm a Romantic----------But please don't leave
There is no doubt.-------I'd be blind.
You strike again---------To walk this world
Before I'm up,-----------Without you,
You seem to think-------I'd have no one
I'm just that tough.------To see me through.
I have a weakness-------You are my world
It's despair,-------------You're what I need,
You can lash------------You're everything
I won't care.------------For you I'd bleed.
I'll take it all------------I'll always love you
To see you smile,-------For all time,
Just need a break-------I'll protect what's yours
Once in a while.---------As if it's mine.
I won't leave you-------No matter what happens
My heart is bound,-----Or what you say,
I can only hope---------I'll stick by your side
You'll come around.-----And keep it that way.
It hurts like hell,--------I heard a crack,--------------I hate your past,
I tried to stand---------Just one moment-------------I promise you
But then I fell.---------Then I'll be back.-------------The pain won't last.
I get back up-------------I can't lose you---------I'll help you heal
To take a stand,----------I just can't think,-------And get you through,
You strike my heart------You push the limit--------By saying this
And I'm down again.------I'm at the brink.---------"I love you..."
I love, I lust--------------I love you
I disagree,----------------I'll recieve,
You always lie------------I need you
You don't need me.------To relieve.
I give you freedom-------To be without you
You then abuse,---------Would be hell,
I can see-----------------I'd break down
How you're amused.-----And even yell
I can't strike back--------I made a promise
I can't lash out,-----------No suicide,
I'm a Romantic----------But please don't leave
There is no doubt.-------I'd be blind.
You strike again---------To walk this world
Before I'm up,-----------Without you,
You seem to think-------I'd have no one
I'm just that tough.------To see me through.
I have a weakness-------You are my world
It's despair,-------------You're what I need,
You can lash------------You're everything
I won't care.------------For you I'd bleed.
I'll take it all------------I'll always love you
To see you smile,-------For all time,
Just need a break-------I'll protect what's yours
Once in a while.---------As if it's mine.
I won't leave you-------No matter what happens
My heart is bound,-----Or what you say,
I can only hope---------I'll stick by your side
You'll come around.-----And keep it that way.
Monday, June 8, 2009
Sluts... The True Apocalypse...
Ok, just finished watching this show "True Life" or something like that on MTV.. Or maybe it was "Real World"? Something like that.. Anyways I now actually respect Bush a lot... He was completely stupid but he knew how to work the gas prices to get his buddies rich along with himself.
Sluts on the other hand, not only lack common sense, but lack all basis of reasoning and logic, and is amazing how they can put on their own shoes... Though they do so rarely since they wear flip-flops or heals, usually taking them off to dance or easily sliding them off for sex.
Now, the TV show pretty much followed a few different people and watched them with their love/sex life...
1 Girl wanted to have 1 girlfriend and 1 boyfriend, and did not want them to be together, did not want a threesome, she just wanted both.. Now I'd see that as, she really just wants boobs and a penis, so date a transvestite. How can you be happy with 1 girlfriend and 1 boyfriend? Apparently she plans on dieing before ever growing up, because she wouldn't be able to live with both of them, and sleep with both of them, while keeping both of them separate.
1 Girl was Bi and was teritorial.. She wanted to date this guy she saw on another MTV show "G for Gents" or "From G's to Gents" or something like that.. She hooked up with him through myspace (Woot, another point supporting myspace is just sex.) They went to a party, he went to get them drinks, and she saw a really hot girl.. She kissed her and made out a little, danced dirty, he came back and she continued to dance with him... Then towards the end, a few people recognized him from the show, hung around him, 1 girl gave him an innocent hug and the main girl flipped out. "I'm teritorial, I can't share." she says, while she can go make out with others? How is that fair at all? Then he walks away angered by her unfairness and she runs to try and catch up "No wait, please, I need a place to stay in this city, you can't ditch me." But then he turns around to talk to her and she walks right past him, trying to ignore em.. wtf?
Another was a guy who was Bi.. He dated a girl and asked if she had a problem with him being Bi... Now, that shouldn't even matter unless you still plan on dating guys, having sex with guys, having a boyfriend, ect... If you're dating a girl and not doing anything to guys, then you aren't Bi, you're taken. Also would like to note, the correct word is "Ask" as in "I'd like to ask you a question.".. What is with BLACK guys (That's not racist, that's just plain true. If you don't agree, don't say it then.) always saying "Aks" which is pronounced like "Axe".. Such as "Yo, I wanna aks you a question." Which my response would be "Yeah, and I want you to have, at least, a double digit IQ before talking with me, as well as a million dollars. Both don't seem to be happening anytime soon."
And the last one I'll mention is two "friends with benefits"... Girls of course. (Come to think of it, I've never seen or heard about two guys being friends with benefits..) Anyways, they were talking while eating (They were roomates I'm guessing?) and talking about how one girl needed a guy. The other girl said no, she just needed to get laid.. Of which grabbed her hand and led her to the bedroom. -.-
Seriously... those who follow lust only kill their own value... That is why they get used and abused and treated like crap, because that's how much they're worth, by their own actions. If all you want is sex, do NOT complain when that is all someone wants from you.
*sighs* Sorry, just had to rant... Sluts may very well be the main reason Common Sense is becomming more and more rare. -.-
Sluts on the other hand, not only lack common sense, but lack all basis of reasoning and logic, and is amazing how they can put on their own shoes... Though they do so rarely since they wear flip-flops or heals, usually taking them off to dance or easily sliding them off for sex.
Now, the TV show pretty much followed a few different people and watched them with their love/sex life...
1 Girl wanted to have 1 girlfriend and 1 boyfriend, and did not want them to be together, did not want a threesome, she just wanted both.. Now I'd see that as, she really just wants boobs and a penis, so date a transvestite. How can you be happy with 1 girlfriend and 1 boyfriend? Apparently she plans on dieing before ever growing up, because she wouldn't be able to live with both of them, and sleep with both of them, while keeping both of them separate.
1 Girl was Bi and was teritorial.. She wanted to date this guy she saw on another MTV show "G for Gents" or "From G's to Gents" or something like that.. She hooked up with him through myspace (Woot, another point supporting myspace is just sex.) They went to a party, he went to get them drinks, and she saw a really hot girl.. She kissed her and made out a little, danced dirty, he came back and she continued to dance with him... Then towards the end, a few people recognized him from the show, hung around him, 1 girl gave him an innocent hug and the main girl flipped out. "I'm teritorial, I can't share." she says, while she can go make out with others? How is that fair at all? Then he walks away angered by her unfairness and she runs to try and catch up "No wait, please, I need a place to stay in this city, you can't ditch me." But then he turns around to talk to her and she walks right past him, trying to ignore em.. wtf?
Another was a guy who was Bi.. He dated a girl and asked if she had a problem with him being Bi... Now, that shouldn't even matter unless you still plan on dating guys, having sex with guys, having a boyfriend, ect... If you're dating a girl and not doing anything to guys, then you aren't Bi, you're taken. Also would like to note, the correct word is "Ask" as in "I'd like to ask you a question.".. What is with BLACK guys (That's not racist, that's just plain true. If you don't agree, don't say it then.) always saying "Aks" which is pronounced like "Axe".. Such as "Yo, I wanna aks you a question." Which my response would be "Yeah, and I want you to have, at least, a double digit IQ before talking with me, as well as a million dollars. Both don't seem to be happening anytime soon."
And the last one I'll mention is two "friends with benefits"... Girls of course. (Come to think of it, I've never seen or heard about two guys being friends with benefits..) Anyways, they were talking while eating (They were roomates I'm guessing?) and talking about how one girl needed a guy. The other girl said no, she just needed to get laid.. Of which grabbed her hand and led her to the bedroom. -.-
Seriously... those who follow lust only kill their own value... That is why they get used and abused and treated like crap, because that's how much they're worth, by their own actions. If all you want is sex, do NOT complain when that is all someone wants from you.
*sighs* Sorry, just had to rant... Sluts may very well be the main reason Common Sense is becomming more and more rare. -.-
Saturday, June 6, 2009
Parental Drama Comeback...
Ok, so the guy my mom has been talking with, Jay (Jason), seems to be after money. But even knowing this, my mom still talks to him. That, I can't understand. However my dad wants her to chose, she can't have both. And though that makes him a hypocrite for saying that, he IS right. So today I helped him move into my uncle's. And I don't mean a bag of clothes, I mean everything he owns. He's going to stay there until mom can make up her mind.
Until then, I'll be the man of the household (Still job hunting, HA that's lame.) So yay for more responsibilities without praise, compensation, or even recognized. -.-
Until then, I'll be the man of the household (Still job hunting, HA that's lame.) So yay for more responsibilities without praise, compensation, or even recognized. -.-
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
Parental Drama OVER!!!... With a twist?
Ok, my mom went to visit Jay (The other guy) another time, and she actually slept WITH him this time.. Yeah, had sex... Dad, of course, became selfish and territorial again, digging through her drawers to find anything...
After a whole lot of storming through the house, swearing and worrying... Jay calls Dad.. o.0 Asking how much is his marriage worth to him... Dad was a bit clueless, but Jay spelled it out.. Money.. Jay wanted money, and then he'd leave mom alone...
That was Jay's plan all alone. We have various texts that we've shown to my uncle, a sheriff, and he's called his boss and they are going to nail him with extortion. Jay doesn't know it yet, and I'll make sure to make a post whether he's ran and dodged the police, or if we got em.
I hate man whores... Who knows how many married couples he's done this too.. How many people he's milked and used for money.. *sighs* Another one I'll see in Hell...
After a whole lot of storming through the house, swearing and worrying... Jay calls Dad.. o.0 Asking how much is his marriage worth to him... Dad was a bit clueless, but Jay spelled it out.. Money.. Jay wanted money, and then he'd leave mom alone...
That was Jay's plan all alone. We have various texts that we've shown to my uncle, a sheriff, and he's called his boss and they are going to nail him with extortion. Jay doesn't know it yet, and I'll make sure to make a post whether he's ran and dodged the police, or if we got em.
I hate man whores... Who knows how many married couples he's done this too.. How many people he's milked and used for money.. *sighs* Another one I'll see in Hell...
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